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I feel like I would like to be somewhere else
Doing something that matters
And I admit here while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my thoughts stick together
Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted by the loss of my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
And I'm just scared, scared that I'll fail you
And sometimes I think that, that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me, I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right, do something right for once
So I say if I can do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial to let me give you will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
To rate look in my date book
It's packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And not that the regret will prove to get me to improve in the long run
Sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
Sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this, you promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right, do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless and I never knew I knew this
Is gonna the day. gonna be the day
That I will do something right, do something right for once.
I noticed I know this week is the symbol of how I use my time
Resented, I spend it convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me doing anything with any consequence
Without me showing anytime with ever making sense of my time
It's my life and my right to use it like I should
Like He would for the good of everything that I would ever know
I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless
And never knew I knew this
Is gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I will do something right
Do something right for once
Sometimes I get so stressed out that I actually lose the stress & just stop, think, & start crying. When I took a shower tonight I did that. Nothing even remotely went wrong today. I had a wonderful day hanging out with Sarah & Matt. Then when I got home I got yelled at for asking if Matt could come eat dinner with us. My dad thinks I'm in too serious of a relationship at too young of an age. I mean, if you've found your soulmate when you're 13/14, you can't just say, we have to wait to be dating 'till we're 16. You just can't do that to someone's heart & emotions. I wish they just understood, but they're parents. What more can I ask for? Oh well, I'm sure once it'll be like 3 years for me & Matt my dad might finally get it.
I missed my Youth Group today & went to Matt & Sarah's. I like mine much better, but I had fun. Nothing else happened today. Kelsea's party was fun. We played around. It was cool. Putt-Putt Fun House is a pretty sweet place. Yeah, later daters♥
Doing something that matters
And I admit here while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my thoughts stick together
Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted by the loss of my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
And I'm just scared, scared that I'll fail you
And sometimes I think that, that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me, I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right, do something right for once
So I say if I can do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial to let me give you will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
To rate look in my date book
It's packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And not that the regret will prove to get me to improve in the long run
Sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
Sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this, you promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right, do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless and I never knew I knew this
Is gonna the day. gonna be the day
That I will do something right, do something right for once.
I noticed I know this week is the symbol of how I use my time
Resented, I spend it convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me doing anything with any consequence
Without me showing anytime with ever making sense of my time
It's my life and my right to use it like I should
Like He would for the good of everything that I would ever know
I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless
And never knew I knew this
Is gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I will do something right
Do something right for once
Sometimes I get so stressed out that I actually lose the stress & just stop, think, & start crying. When I took a shower tonight I did that. Nothing even remotely went wrong today. I had a wonderful day hanging out with Sarah & Matt. Then when I got home I got yelled at for asking if Matt could come eat dinner with us. My dad thinks I'm in too serious of a relationship at too young of an age. I mean, if you've found your soulmate when you're 13/14, you can't just say, we have to wait to be dating 'till we're 16. You just can't do that to someone's heart & emotions. I wish they just understood, but they're parents. What more can I ask for? Oh well, I'm sure once it'll be like 3 years for me & Matt my dad might finally get it.
I missed my Youth Group today & went to Matt & Sarah's. I like mine much better, but I had fun. Nothing else happened today. Kelsea's party was fun. We played around. It was cool. Putt-Putt Fun House is a pretty sweet place. Yeah, later daters♥