FUCK DUDES
Maybe you can help me out...what's the deal? Why is it guys always just see me as a friend, and nothing more? Is it the way I talk? Is it the way I dress? I just don't get it...every person I have an interest in never see's me as anything more than just a friend. Don't get me wrong I love my guy friends, but just once, I'd like to have someone thats just as interested in me as I am with them. I honestly don't get it?
Sure I'm not a girly girl. I never will be. I've always been a "tomboy" if you will, and I can't change that. I've tried to be a "girl" and what comes out of that ridicule, and humiliation. It's like I can't be myself, and I feel like I don't know self conscious about that now. I've gone out of my way JUST FOR DUDES to dress "nice" and seriously I get made fun of, and get told "that's not you". You're right its not me, but when you're trying to impress someone, hearing that...man it sucks.
If you've noticed, a good majority of my friends on this stupid website are guys. Out of all these dudes, why is it so hard for me to find one? Hmm? I dunno, I'm definitely in one of "Those" moods right now.
But being a girly girl just isn't me. I'm so sick of being alone, and shit it bothers the fuck out of me. I'm sick of thinking about things and worrying about if I do them, I'll be made fun of for it. You all honestly don't understand how much I get made fun of. Throughout my whole 19 years, its my fuckin' life story. I can't do anything with out being made fun of, or criticized and its shitty...like I said I'm in a bad fucking mood.
But the bottom line is...what do I need to do to make myself more..."girl like" if you will? do I need to do anything? or do I just need to find myself different bro's to like? I'm not too sure, and the chances of anyone ever reading this...fuckin' slim to none...So i pretty much just wasted 10 minutes of my life for nothing...AWESOME!
Sure I'm not a girly girl. I never will be. I've always been a "tomboy" if you will, and I can't change that. I've tried to be a "girl" and what comes out of that ridicule, and humiliation. It's like I can't be myself, and I feel like I don't know self conscious about that now. I've gone out of my way JUST FOR DUDES to dress "nice" and seriously I get made fun of, and get told "that's not you". You're right its not me, but when you're trying to impress someone, hearing that...man it sucks.
If you've noticed, a good majority of my friends on this stupid website are guys. Out of all these dudes, why is it so hard for me to find one? Hmm? I dunno, I'm definitely in one of "Those" moods right now.
But being a girly girl just isn't me. I'm so sick of being alone, and shit it bothers the fuck out of me. I'm sick of thinking about things and worrying about if I do them, I'll be made fun of for it. You all honestly don't understand how much I get made fun of. Throughout my whole 19 years, its my fuckin' life story. I can't do anything with out being made fun of, or criticized and its shitty...like I said I'm in a bad fucking mood.
But the bottom line is...what do I need to do to make myself more..."girl like" if you will? do I need to do anything? or do I just need to find myself different bro's to like? I'm not too sure, and the chances of anyone ever reading this...fuckin' slim to none...So i pretty much just wasted 10 minutes of my life for nothing...AWESOME!