whats the point?

[xx_raven24_xx]

whats the point anymore? why do i continue to chase after something i cannot have? all it does is hurt me and sometimes those around me. how can i deal with myself this way? after sometime, a very close friend of mine has just told me something that struck me like a wrecking ball. we were very close and i wanted to go further, but with all my other problems getting in the way, it just would not happen. and now i get this bomb dropped on me. i can say its nothing, but then i'd be lying. i have a major jealous streak and it prevents me from being like everyone else. its why i am the way i am. but after having spent so much time together, and dealing with so much, theres just one thing that i can't do.....and thats give her what she wants. another child. i wish i could help, but with all my other problems, its just not something i can do right now. not without adding more problems to my already growing list. i wish there was something i could do, anything that would help me forget in anyway. knowing whats about to happen just hurts too much. and even thinking about it makes me want to break down. i know shes not mine, but after so much and hearing all the troubles and helping with everything else, it just feels like we've become something. but thats just my imagination making fun of me. i know that theres no chance that i'll be able to fill the void that occupies her heart. and with that, i know we can never be together. no matter how much i want it, it can never happen. well, this is good bye to what could've been, and what'll never be.

adios my dear friend, things may never be the same between us.

I am the Dark Guardian Angel

Raven24