will prob delete
listened to a voicemail my dad left me on sat and all of a sudden i'm trying not to cry at work.
the only deaths i care about are my fam and friends. my dad's not dead or dying - hopefully - but i think about the passage of time a lot and i don't like getting older. i don't know what i'd do w/out my family. just trying to enjoy every moment.
i'm not crying over my supervisor leaving even when the rest of them did.
why would i cry over tom petty, who i never listened to, or over the people dying in vegas, who i never knew and can't empathize with? i feel so removed from it all.
i just can't think about the future, though. i don't think it's helpful or healthy. if you think dreams are reachable within a day, you'll be more motivated to achieve them. at least i think so.
i need to walk but i feel so sad and tired. probably won't tell my psych. about this; i don't want to recall this later on