it shouldn't surprise me anymore
but wow... how low on the friendship totem pole i must rank.
how did i not know a high school friend of mine got engaged? i don't think i'm being invited to her wedding either, which is going to hurt. it's my fault for not really keeping in touch, but still.
shouldn't i be the one reaching out my friend who just broke up with her boyfriend?
it always feels weird trying to be in someone's life since i'm so preoccupied with myself. socialization can be exhausting, though. i don't know how some people can do it.
i try to put my loneliness out of my head, but its sites like facebook that make me realize it's worse than i thought. it doesn't do any good being out of the loop constantly and it's clear that people have forgotten about me or don't care about me and it's like... why should i even bother trying to make myself relevant and not invisible at this point.
on another note, i have this class to attend on tuesday and i think it's going to be hell. like orientation-level hell. it'll look good on my resume but... not looking forward to it. and i have another class scheduled the tuesday after that - we'll see how this one goes - i might cancel if i don't see any benefit to it.
how did i not know a high school friend of mine got engaged? i don't think i'm being invited to her wedding either, which is going to hurt. it's my fault for not really keeping in touch, but still.
shouldn't i be the one reaching out my friend who just broke up with her boyfriend?
it always feels weird trying to be in someone's life since i'm so preoccupied with myself. socialization can be exhausting, though. i don't know how some people can do it.
i try to put my loneliness out of my head, but its sites like facebook that make me realize it's worse than i thought. it doesn't do any good being out of the loop constantly and it's clear that people have forgotten about me or don't care about me and it's like... why should i even bother trying to make myself relevant and not invisible at this point.
on another note, i have this class to attend on tuesday and i think it's going to be hell. like orientation-level hell. it'll look good on my resume but... not looking forward to it. and i have another class scheduled the tuesday after that - we'll see how this one goes - i might cancel if i don't see any benefit to it.