lately.
When I am wrapped up in your arms
i feel more safe, then i have before
When you look into my eyes
its a feeling i cant let pass
I know this isnt a lie
because what i feel for you
i never felt with anyone else
When I am close to you
The happiness is always near
and when im thinking about you
the smile is always there
your what ive been waiting for
your someone i can share my love with.
My fears are taken away when im with you.
Words can't express just how I feel
But in only this short amout of time
I hope you've realized my feelings for you are true
I'm not with you to hurt you,
and I know you feel the same.
With you is where I want to be
because I found someone who loves me for who i am
and doesnt want to change me
you've given me all the reason in the world
to believe that you will never hurt me.
If i ever lost you,
id dont know what Id do
You probably think I am crazy after writing this
but truthfully im not
everytime were together.
it brings a new experience for me.
One to make me realize that every guy is not the same.
Your my angel that God sent from above.
It just feels so right, being with you :D
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So Lately its been going ok. I had surgary last weeek. I think its finally starting to healll... after we had to make a trip to the emergency room. because it was infected. and i could bearly open my mouth or swallow anything. in alot of pain... i would have much rather delt with strep the rest of my life.
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Sooo Ive been hanging out with Jeremy. He's amazing. and perfect. It feels so right when im with him. like nothing can go wrong. We dont get to see each other but on weekends.. but we talk every day. and have started getting memories to share with each other. Best thing about it.. hes not like most guys... Ive had some pretty fucked up boyfriends in my life... some who hit me. lied to me. treated me like shit. used me just for sex. or to have them pleasured. Honesty is the most important thing in a relationship. if there aint that then there shouldnt be a relationship.. he cares for me and accpects me for who i am. and dont try to change me.. he knows about my eatting issues. and my cutting.. and hes here for me through it all. alot of people once they find out about it. they leave. its like fuck you your crazy. but really im not its just how i handle shit. He dont see what I see in him. but one day he willl.we have promises made to each other :)
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My therpist was trying to put me inpatient for the eatting issue. she says its getting worse and all im doing is ruining my body more.. which i know its true.. but i cant accpect it. i hate how i loook.... im ulgyyyy in a million ways.
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Well i think i lost a friend. Shannon called me today, and she was like I need help. and I was like whats wrong. and she told me she had just tooken over 60 pills. and i was like im callin the cops... so that u dont die. and she told me not to because she would get sent away.. but i cant just let her die. and my mom made me call the cops.... idk, what to do..
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im going to bed. goodnight.
i feel more safe, then i have before
When you look into my eyes
its a feeling i cant let pass
I know this isnt a lie
because what i feel for you
i never felt with anyone else
When I am close to you
The happiness is always near
and when im thinking about you
the smile is always there
your what ive been waiting for
your someone i can share my love with.
My fears are taken away when im with you.
Words can't express just how I feel
But in only this short amout of time
I hope you've realized my feelings for you are true
I'm not with you to hurt you,
and I know you feel the same.
With you is where I want to be
because I found someone who loves me for who i am
and doesnt want to change me
you've given me all the reason in the world
to believe that you will never hurt me.
If i ever lost you,
id dont know what Id do
You probably think I am crazy after writing this
but truthfully im not
everytime were together.
it brings a new experience for me.
One to make me realize that every guy is not the same.
Your my angel that God sent from above.
It just feels so right, being with you :D
--------------------------------
So Lately its been going ok. I had surgary last weeek. I think its finally starting to healll... after we had to make a trip to the emergency room. because it was infected. and i could bearly open my mouth or swallow anything. in alot of pain... i would have much rather delt with strep the rest of my life.
--------------------------------
Sooo Ive been hanging out with Jeremy. He's amazing. and perfect. It feels so right when im with him. like nothing can go wrong. We dont get to see each other but on weekends.. but we talk every day. and have started getting memories to share with each other. Best thing about it.. hes not like most guys... Ive had some pretty fucked up boyfriends in my life... some who hit me. lied to me. treated me like shit. used me just for sex. or to have them pleasured. Honesty is the most important thing in a relationship. if there aint that then there shouldnt be a relationship.. he cares for me and accpects me for who i am. and dont try to change me.. he knows about my eatting issues. and my cutting.. and hes here for me through it all. alot of people once they find out about it. they leave. its like fuck you your crazy. but really im not its just how i handle shit. He dont see what I see in him. but one day he willl.we have promises made to each other :)
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My therpist was trying to put me inpatient for the eatting issue. she says its getting worse and all im doing is ruining my body more.. which i know its true.. but i cant accpect it. i hate how i loook.... im ulgyyyy in a million ways.
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Well i think i lost a friend. Shannon called me today, and she was like I need help. and I was like whats wrong. and she told me she had just tooken over 60 pills. and i was like im callin the cops... so that u dont die. and she told me not to because she would get sent away.. but i cant just let her die. and my mom made me call the cops.... idk, what to do..
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im going to bed. goodnight.