thinking about adam.
so * this is about to be a long entry.
i havent talked to my boyfriend in 18 days. 18 days. thats 2 weeks and 4 days. thats an incredibly long time.
but yeah, yesterday after i got my hair done i went to my sissies. me and my neice watched from justin to kelly but i fell asleep like in the first half hour, i wus exhausted. then my sissie got up and went to work so i stayed there till like 1 * 30 and my neice is such a brat and she wus screaming and crying and stuff and shes 9 years old. i wus like SHUTTUP!. she made me so mad but last night she wus bein sweet.
then i came home & took a shower & stuff.. talked to Rob for a few.. i guess i pissed him off but i dont know how. whatever though i dont really care, he needs to get over him self. he needs to get over the situation, seriously. he makes me so mad.
* I love my chealsea <3 shes so nice. she got lowlights in her hair too cuz were sweet like that =] were wearin comfy clothes skating tomorrow. yes i know, skating, i havent gone in so long. were going babysitting before, until like 11 * 30 though, getting dropped off, then her mom is taking me home at 6 i believe. how exciting. i cant wait. i already have my new years resoloutions picked out =] i have a bunch of them. <3 i wanna lose weight of course, (( but like that will happen )) . & another one is to go to church more =] i need to pick a church close though, maybe with Jessica, i just dont pay much attention there. i payed more attention at Adams church.. and that wus hardly any at all. i was always to buzy tryin to make him smile, and lookin at his gourgeous face.
<3 * im gonna marry him on sept. 1st. i just dont know what year yet. i want 2012, but thats sooo far away, and i cant wait that long =] im honestly the luckiest girl in the whole world.i cant wait until i get to see him on sunday, but having to leave is gonna be the hardest part. im gonna write him something super long to look at after i leave, hmm. i love him so so so so much. like, even though hes locked up, i still feel so lucky. i am in love with this boy. he looks so good in a suit too, i have a lot to look forward to when i walk down the isle. i feel much more intouch with my feelings, i just miss him so damn much.well im done for now, i have so much more to say i just cant get it all out.
This vacation's useless
These white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where i laid and told you, but you sweared you loved me more
Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is
Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
There will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl
Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is
Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is