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I'm really having difficulty with some things it seems right now. Like I'm in a weird place. Though I'd like to blame it on the moon and other astrological events, it's just life. I feel caged, but yet not. Steven does say I'm a walking contradiction...I prefer conundrum personally.
An error in perception caused quite the lengthy conversation today. Now it's time to make a decision. Wait it out...or not. I have a hard time presenting myself to people. I don't want to bend over backwards for 30 people, five would be ok. You can't expect me to do all of the following things with absolute perfection:
1) Order supplies
2) Tracking emails (copy and paste them into customer orders and then electronically mail it to them, at least 60 a day)
3) Order entry. For multiple vendors. At least 20 a day. Up to a hundred coming off the weekend.
4) Answer main line inbound calls.
5) Answer customer emails. Anywhere from 60 to 100 a day.
6) Enter the data for the sales reports.
7) Keep abreast of appointments and upcoming events.
8) Event planning.
9) Answering inbound customer calls.
The emails, the tracking and the order entry and sales report were the most consuming. Now I no longer have to do the order entry. Which is great. Except now I'm answering customer service calls. Which sucks. I just can't answer the same question about the same item 18 times in a day. Repetition bores the absolute shit out of me. I don't really like to be around a bunch of people at a time. Lots of noise is distracting for me. But I work well in a high pressure enviroment. Go figure.
So a dispute over coffee and attitude this morning (don't even get me started), led to the evaluation between Holly and myself. Who is my direct supervisor. I pretty much told her that, really, I'm a behind the scenes person. I want to have my hands in everything but please don't make me talk to the general public. I loathe it. We discussed maybe an eventual move to another department. She said that I was smart, I show up on time, I'm informative, I'm helpful so that leads me to believe they believe that I'm an overall asset to the company. I'm trying to get them to understand that this is just who I am. They don't get the syrupy sweet me.
An error in perception caused quite the lengthy conversation today. Now it's time to make a decision. Wait it out...or not. I have a hard time presenting myself to people. I don't want to bend over backwards for 30 people, five would be ok. You can't expect me to do all of the following things with absolute perfection:
1) Order supplies
2) Tracking emails (copy and paste them into customer orders and then electronically mail it to them, at least 60 a day)
3) Order entry. For multiple vendors. At least 20 a day. Up to a hundred coming off the weekend.
4) Answer main line inbound calls.
5) Answer customer emails. Anywhere from 60 to 100 a day.
6) Enter the data for the sales reports.
7) Keep abreast of appointments and upcoming events.
8) Event planning.
9) Answering inbound customer calls.
The emails, the tracking and the order entry and sales report were the most consuming. Now I no longer have to do the order entry. Which is great. Except now I'm answering customer service calls. Which sucks. I just can't answer the same question about the same item 18 times in a day. Repetition bores the absolute shit out of me. I don't really like to be around a bunch of people at a time. Lots of noise is distracting for me. But I work well in a high pressure enviroment. Go figure.
So a dispute over coffee and attitude this morning (don't even get me started), led to the evaluation between Holly and myself. Who is my direct supervisor. I pretty much told her that, really, I'm a behind the scenes person. I want to have my hands in everything but please don't make me talk to the general public. I loathe it. We discussed maybe an eventual move to another department. She said that I was smart, I show up on time, I'm informative, I'm helpful so that leads me to believe they believe that I'm an overall asset to the company. I'm trying to get them to understand that this is just who I am. They don't get the syrupy sweet me.