i think i hate it right now...
i dunnu, i feel so different. i feel like i'm not like everyone else. i dont feel cared for. the people who cared for me 24/7 arent there anymore. now i have new people that suddenly care for me?! WTF?! i cried myself the other day. everything is changing. and its not for the better.
looks like i will be going to homecoming. neyleen already got 2 tickets. so w/e..i'll go instead of throwing myself the 5,000th pity party! will i have fun at homecoming? will i meet new people? i hope so, i'm kinda tired of my life..i need something new. why am i going to homecoming?? to see them together and i can break down into tears?? no, i'll go to show him that i can have fun without him!
for those who see me at school: do i look happy? or do u know theres something wrong with me?
i really dont want to leave and go into "that". i have no privacy. i hate it. where will she go? i want things BACK to normal. i want my cell back. i want my friends back, i want my life back.
i write this while i cry my eyes out. but its good. i'm letting everything out. i want to start over. start highschool over and just, be me.
-karla
looks like i will be going to homecoming. neyleen already got 2 tickets. so w/e..i'll go instead of throwing myself the 5,000th pity party! will i have fun at homecoming? will i meet new people? i hope so, i'm kinda tired of my life..i need something new. why am i going to homecoming?? to see them together and i can break down into tears?? no, i'll go to show him that i can have fun without him!
for those who see me at school: do i look happy? or do u know theres something wrong with me?
i really dont want to leave and go into "that". i have no privacy. i hate it. where will she go? i want things BACK to normal. i want my cell back. i want my friends back, i want my life back.
i write this while i cry my eyes out. but its good. i'm letting everything out. i want to start over. start highschool over and just, be me.
-karla