valentines
my 23rd bday is coming up..... nothing special, i dont care if i do anything, i just wish i had a good group of consistant friends, i mean i love the people i know, but if there is ever an event i know of last minute, i dont know of anyone who is reliable 100%. i mean fuck, i want to plan an amazing nice summer vacation but i dont know anyone who would be donw. getting older is so depressing, just seeing friends fade away knowing you will never see, or hear from them again....i mean here i am left here every year sucking on the youth of kids like 7 years younger than me, just to try to live in what i missed out on....it fucking sucks so much, i really hate everything going on in my life right now, and it could not be a better time to update with 3 feet of snow predicting to come...