Tuesday

[xx_deftones_xx]

Hi journal, today was just almost the same as others. wake up, discover im not rich and that im alone. waking up to no one next to me. makes me cry internally. I really dont need to be. but once I find my someone, i wont let it go. i wake up waiting for the day to bleed into dark. watchin the sunset reminds me of my life. it fades away but you know it will always come back. which brings me to a couple questions: What if we didnt know if our "daylight" will come back? Will we live in dark the rest of ourlives? Will we exclude ourselves from the outside world? A few of the many questions I ask myself but no avail, i get no solutions. Will these solutions come to me? or is it already right underneath my nose i can smell it. If I did, It wouldnt not smell that great. These proportions of life are earned piece by piece. But still it makes no sense. Why are we here? do I have a serve purpose? or do i purposely serve? Can I really take a knife and cut these bounds behind my back? Could I walk a straight line with my eyes closed?

Step beside me to see how I fail,
My emotions has been sitting out.
My life seems to have turned stale,
My wound reopens and bleeds again.
It wont heal.
Or does it just need time?
Maybe..