...i am alive...
okay, sorry bout being MIA for like ever, but my internet brokeed, well it was odd and its verizion's fault, not mine... BUT A LOT HAS HAPPENED SO LETS GET TO THE UPDATIN...
men:
it goes without saying, that i adore men, and within the last few months, i have found a few in which i care about...well two. there is chris, who is a gentleman in every sense of the word, but hes over there, and im here and in sd, so how it goes..well idk. then there is dustin, perhaps the most promising, because he is such a gentleman and just chill as idk what, the only drawback..besides the fact i work with him (hahah) all is good, he makes me laugh and for the most part i enjoy his company, so lets see how this goes....
but last but not least, a little shout out to AJ, the man, the myth, the legenad who has so kindly decided to be apart of my life again, just wehn i thought it was all over....
i suppose it goes without saying, the SHITE, has hit the fan..yet again.
school:
so i was at school for all of 45 min, i couldnt find parking and my class schedule was BS, so i left and hung out with aj. which went from awkard to sexual back to awakard and finnaly us. it was cool seeig him, i just kinda smiled and was like "yep yep thats my boy yep" we went to the mall, and he tried to get me to see a movie, but i was tooo consumed with figuring out his motives to try to enjoy a movie. instead we talked about his gf (well all hints point at there breaking up) *coincedince?* and about my men, "glad to see you havent changed much" oh, im sorry..does tthe fact i date upset you? wow... last time i checked, we arent together, and never were, so what concern is it of his, what i do? well, wahtever that concern is, he display his disgust with the afforementioned competition, and im proud to say, i didn take it and apologized, i told him to fuck off, that its my life. i belived he was amused by me, and offended by my intravertness. its sooo weird were soo effing conbustable together, but affectionate too. excuse me, while i bang my head against the wall, yet again.
in the short of things, im at least trying to feel him out again. and in the long of things, im trying to make sure i dont get fucked up again...im gaurded now, or at least im trying, but for some reason, hes breaking me in quite nicely, and i dont think he realizes he is...alix i have always said, is an amazing person and beautiful inside and out, and yesterday was no exception, its hard to love someone whose so violently consumes you....
reallly hard..
i guess only time will tell.
p.s.
i left him all kinds of upset, over how hes all up in my buizness, and hes like "well if your still not mad at me, come by wed after class, and ill see you then."
ha
men:
it goes without saying, that i adore men, and within the last few months, i have found a few in which i care about...well two. there is chris, who is a gentleman in every sense of the word, but hes over there, and im here and in sd, so how it goes..well idk. then there is dustin, perhaps the most promising, because he is such a gentleman and just chill as idk what, the only drawback..besides the fact i work with him (hahah) all is good, he makes me laugh and for the most part i enjoy his company, so lets see how this goes....
but last but not least, a little shout out to AJ, the man, the myth, the legenad who has so kindly decided to be apart of my life again, just wehn i thought it was all over....
i suppose it goes without saying, the SHITE, has hit the fan..yet again.
school:
so i was at school for all of 45 min, i couldnt find parking and my class schedule was BS, so i left and hung out with aj. which went from awkard to sexual back to awakard and finnaly us. it was cool seeig him, i just kinda smiled and was like "yep yep thats my boy yep" we went to the mall, and he tried to get me to see a movie, but i was tooo consumed with figuring out his motives to try to enjoy a movie. instead we talked about his gf (well all hints point at there breaking up) *coincedince?* and about my men, "glad to see you havent changed much" oh, im sorry..does tthe fact i date upset you? wow... last time i checked, we arent together, and never were, so what concern is it of his, what i do? well, wahtever that concern is, he display his disgust with the afforementioned competition, and im proud to say, i didn take it and apologized, i told him to fuck off, that its my life. i belived he was amused by me, and offended by my intravertness. its sooo weird were soo effing conbustable together, but affectionate too. excuse me, while i bang my head against the wall, yet again.
in the short of things, im at least trying to feel him out again. and in the long of things, im trying to make sure i dont get fucked up again...im gaurded now, or at least im trying, but for some reason, hes breaking me in quite nicely, and i dont think he realizes he is...alix i have always said, is an amazing person and beautiful inside and out, and yesterday was no exception, its hard to love someone whose so violently consumes you....
reallly hard..
i guess only time will tell.
p.s.
i left him all kinds of upset, over how hes all up in my buizness, and hes like "well if your still not mad at me, come by wed after class, and ill see you then."
ha