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Somewhere between all the appointments, starbucks coffee,
and Mc Donald's... paying bills and then not paying bills..
Making plans then breaking plans... Appearing, Disappearing,
then reappearing... I forgot--I forgot what it was like to cry.
I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you
happy... And that pretending to
be SmArT doesn't make you smart .. I forgot
that you can't just forget the past in
fear of the FUTURE... I forgot that you
can't control falling in LoVe..
And that you can't make yourself fall in *Love*
.... I learned that I can LOVE... I
learned that it's okay to MesS UP....
And it's okay to ask for HELP... And it's
okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to cOmPLaiN
to your friends for a whole day........
I learned that sometimes the things you want
most you just can't have and the things that
you look for are right in front of you.
I learned that the greatest thing about
HiGh ScHOoL,
it isn't about the parties or the
DRiNKiNG or the Hookups ...
It's the chances that i take.
I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget
are the things which we most need to talk about...
I learned that TIME can heal all things...
I learned that just when you think it can't get worse - it does...
but you survive...
I've learned that when you start feeling BaD
about L O S I N G touch, you pray they are feeling the same way...
and...
i leaned that the only remedy for LOVE
is love itself. . . . . .
this weekend was probably the worst weekend...ever. ever ever ever. i don't think ive ever felt more out of shape or fucked up or confused or misplaced. and its weird, usually being at home usually centers me, but yesterday i tried my hardest to stay away. the only good thing that came out of it was that i realize now what it means to have a true friend that really cares for you, and i love her for that.
i hate when people break up....it leaves such an unkown feeling, about whats going to happen to you in the future......