Feb 03, 2005 21:39
This is my first Emo entry in this journal.. I thought Id spare you all from myt "problems", and Im sorry for complaining (luke)...
I feel so hopeless, so helpless. My group... the L7, whatever the hell you want to call us is just so perfect. Everybody loves everyone of them, i do too obviously, but it crushes me everytime some guy talks about how hot Brittani is, or how hilarious Caitlin is. I know it shouldnt, I know I should be happy for them, but Ive been trying for so long, and I feel like giving up. Everyone of them is absolutley gorgeous, and every single girl could get a guy like that. For me, which I know is my fault, I pick all the guys who treat me like crap and shut everybody else up. But god, Im so sick of faking everything, and trying to pretend like nothings wrong. I dont like people seeing me upset, especially crying, so you rarely will see it, but Im seriously close to breaking down. And Im not trying to fish for compliments here, and I could care less if you think so. GOD I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY HERE. Im just complaning. I need help... I have such low self esteem..except you would too if every girl you know is size 2, stunnigly beautiful pimpette. I dont know. Just venting.
Im sorry.
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You dont have to comment. Chances are Ill delete this because Emo sucks.