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so this is it. this is the part that everyone always warns you about. the part where you realize how messed up you are. the smoke has cleared, the dust has settled, and you're taking your first glimpse of the wreckage. you retreat into your shell and involuntarily push people away but kick yourself for it thirty seconds later.
i don't feel like i've been myself lately. i'm in a weird funk where i'm still learning to exist as a single person and i'm second guessing my every move and over-analyzing everyone else's. i need to find a way to shake this off. i need to relax, enjoy the moment, and take things at face value. i can't let this ruin me. i can say with 100% sincerity that i believe that i'm an amazing girl. i just haven't been letting other people see that as of late. my confidence in every day situations feels completely shot. i've been too anxious and lost in my own thoughts. i keep hoping that eventually i'll just take a really deep breath, exhale, and suddenly be over it.
as a result, i'm forcing someone really special out of my life and its frustrating because i'm not who i've been the past few weeks. i'm selling myself short and i need to cut the shit. readddyyy.... go.
i don't feel like i've been myself lately. i'm in a weird funk where i'm still learning to exist as a single person and i'm second guessing my every move and over-analyzing everyone else's. i need to find a way to shake this off. i need to relax, enjoy the moment, and take things at face value. i can't let this ruin me. i can say with 100% sincerity that i believe that i'm an amazing girl. i just haven't been letting other people see that as of late. my confidence in every day situations feels completely shot. i've been too anxious and lost in my own thoughts. i keep hoping that eventually i'll just take a really deep breath, exhale, and suddenly be over it.
as a result, i'm forcing someone really special out of my life and its frustrating because i'm not who i've been the past few weeks. i'm selling myself short and i need to cut the shit. readddyyy.... go.