collect a couple forks, hold them three feet apart, wait for lightening to strike to burn me up...
i hate northeastern. its a really good school, the programs are excellent, the teachers are pretty good, and there are so many opportunities there.
HOWEVER...
i'm entirely out of my league and no one gets it. i'm sick of getting shit on by them. i'm sorry my dad doesn't own sony music and therefore i have to work, intern, and live a million miles off campus in order to keep my head above water but the least they could do is not make it any harder than it already is. they're making me pay for three extra classes that i don't even need for my degree because i'll only be one class away from graduating my last semester there but they don't allow part time students. so i have to take three more classes just so they don't kick me out. and i can't just take the extra class in the semester before that because they don't allow that either? when i was freaking out about this my adviser just said "so its another semester. no big deal." when i told her it was a big deal because i had to pay for it myself she just stared blankly and shrugged. then when i registered for next semester i got ONE of the classes i wanted because they even let freshmen register before transfers. but i managed to figure things out so that i would still only have to go to school three days a week and could devote the other days to work and intern things. aside from that i have an hour commute that i'd rather do as infrequently as possible. i had everything set except one class that so many other transfers got fucked out of that they had to make a new section of. this new section is from eight to eleven AM on the two days that i had left open in order to do other things/sleep/not die. oh and not to mention that small matter of a typo on my financial aid statement that led me to believe that i had two times the financial aid they're actually giving me. fuck you.
that said, i recently realized that i need to take better care of myself. its a pretty basic concept but i've been neglecting it. i've been so busy that i don't sleep and eat shitty food, or nothing at all. i'm always sick and i'm starting to develop real health problems. i went to health services this week and i'm anemic but i've gained a ton of weight at the same time. i have to go back next month for all these tests. i feel like hell and its completely not worth it. one extra day a week to catch my breath would be ideal. something needs to change. i can't do this anymore. i have to ease up on myself.
to start, i got myself a present
i've missed you, old friend.
HOWEVER...
i'm entirely out of my league and no one gets it. i'm sick of getting shit on by them. i'm sorry my dad doesn't own sony music and therefore i have to work, intern, and live a million miles off campus in order to keep my head above water but the least they could do is not make it any harder than it already is. they're making me pay for three extra classes that i don't even need for my degree because i'll only be one class away from graduating my last semester there but they don't allow part time students. so i have to take three more classes just so they don't kick me out. and i can't just take the extra class in the semester before that because they don't allow that either? when i was freaking out about this my adviser just said "so its another semester. no big deal." when i told her it was a big deal because i had to pay for it myself she just stared blankly and shrugged. then when i registered for next semester i got ONE of the classes i wanted because they even let freshmen register before transfers. but i managed to figure things out so that i would still only have to go to school three days a week and could devote the other days to work and intern things. aside from that i have an hour commute that i'd rather do as infrequently as possible. i had everything set except one class that so many other transfers got fucked out of that they had to make a new section of. this new section is from eight to eleven AM on the two days that i had left open in order to do other things/sleep/not die. oh and not to mention that small matter of a typo on my financial aid statement that led me to believe that i had two times the financial aid they're actually giving me. fuck you.
that said, i recently realized that i need to take better care of myself. its a pretty basic concept but i've been neglecting it. i've been so busy that i don't sleep and eat shitty food, or nothing at all. i'm always sick and i'm starting to develop real health problems. i went to health services this week and i'm anemic but i've gained a ton of weight at the same time. i have to go back next month for all these tests. i feel like hell and its completely not worth it. one extra day a week to catch my breath would be ideal. something needs to change. i can't do this anymore. i have to ease up on myself.
to start, i got myself a present
i've missed you, old friend.