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okay so life is pretty blah right now. my roomate left and didnt come back which means we have to move AGAIN. i dont want to but i dont have a choice. mike and jeanette dont want to pay that much in rent and i can not afford to pay that much so yea. i am strongly contemplating moving in to my own place. i am sick of living with people. they do nothing but fuck me over so yea. but yea.
i really dont want to go back to work but i have to. this is my last week of my senior project and my paper is about 2/3rds done. ugh. nxt week i am flying up to see my sister. she doesnt know it yet but yea. i will be leaving wednesday morning and coming back saturday night. this is a much needed break. there is not that much longer left of this semester either. next semester i will only have 2 classes so i can work alot more. i really hope my sisters surgery goes well.
i miss some people. we are so far out of touch its freakin crazy. my dad wont leave me alone. he keeps bugging me to go up and see him but i really dont want to. i wish he would just go away. i mean yea, hes in utah now but gosh he still bugs me. now that he is apparently "sober" he wants to rekindle the relationship he threw down the toilet. i dont want to. my weaknesses are that i am too willing to forgive people and i give people more then enough chances. but my dad, hes just blew it so bad. 16 of my 18 years of life he has done nothing for me but qabandon me and drink and snort his life away. my sister says i need togive him another chance but i say No. she doesnt understand what these past 3 years have been like and she definatly doesnt know wat the past 18 years have been like. ugh oh well.
people keep asking me what i want for Xmas but i really dont want anything. i dont deserve anything therefore i dont want anyone to get me anything. so... what do you all want>????
okies talk to you later... love ya
i really dont want to go back to work but i have to. this is my last week of my senior project and my paper is about 2/3rds done. ugh. nxt week i am flying up to see my sister. she doesnt know it yet but yea. i will be leaving wednesday morning and coming back saturday night. this is a much needed break. there is not that much longer left of this semester either. next semester i will only have 2 classes so i can work alot more. i really hope my sisters surgery goes well.
i miss some people. we are so far out of touch its freakin crazy. my dad wont leave me alone. he keeps bugging me to go up and see him but i really dont want to. i wish he would just go away. i mean yea, hes in utah now but gosh he still bugs me. now that he is apparently "sober" he wants to rekindle the relationship he threw down the toilet. i dont want to. my weaknesses are that i am too willing to forgive people and i give people more then enough chances. but my dad, hes just blew it so bad. 16 of my 18 years of life he has done nothing for me but qabandon me and drink and snort his life away. my sister says i need togive him another chance but i say No. she doesnt understand what these past 3 years have been like and she definatly doesnt know wat the past 18 years have been like. ugh oh well.
people keep asking me what i want for Xmas but i really dont want anything. i dont deserve anything therefore i dont want anyone to get me anything. so... what do you all want>????
okies talk to you later... love ya