Sep 25, 2004 13:00
Depressed Confussion :
Slip me another pill to make the pain go away.
All this suffering has made me insane.
Slip me another pill to make this pain go away.
I can't put up with life's nonsence today.
Give me a drug to take me away from every reason that I can't remember.
Give me something to take me out of life and it's memories.
This pain! This suffering! Why can't I just fly away.
Why can't I breathe and why can't I see that this life isn't a destiny for anyone to succed.
People just don't understand.
People just don't believe.
Give me something to take me out of life.
Geve me a drug to take me away.
Slip me another pill to make this pain go away.
Life's reason is to simply just go insane.
I want to run away since I've been isolated from everyone and everything.
And yet I'm not concidered a human being.
Right now I'm nothing to this world.
I'm trying hard to understand to do things without a helping hand.
I'm trying hard to understand what it takes to be a man.
Without a doubt in my mind,
I can see that I'm falling behind.
Without a doubt in my mind,
What is it that I'm supposed to find.
I'm slipping away all the time,
Can't seem to adjitate my mind.
I'm slipping away from life,
Realized how it's better than mine.
I don't understand and I don't give a damn about this shitty life.
I don't even wanna look back in it.
As I walk into the darkness I can't see heaven,
My mind has found it's ecstacy.
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I don't know what to say. I'm fucking bored and Jeff's cousin Andrew is fucking bothering me. He keeps saying that he is hacking into my computer and I'm just sitting here like what a fucking twerp. "I'm hacking into your computer and now I'm in your processor and now you're dead". Fuck off twerp. Jeff is sitting on the other side of the library where his cousing is and his cousing doesn't know that I'm actually looking at him to see every fucking move he makes. Look at that faggot. "DIE,,DIE,,DIE,,YAY!!" Bullshit. He just said "Larry Hacks This". What a fucking dingle-berry. He has no clue that I'm doing this either. He is pissing me off saying that he knows what I'm typing when I wasn't typing at all. Just fucking shut up already. He's in la la land. Maybe beyond la la land. I'm just going to sit here and type down every fucking word that twerp fucking says. My enjoyment!! What a fucking twerp. "You're dead. You're dead now Larry." Shut the fuck up Andrew.. No you shit-stain I fucking win. You fucking lose. I fucking bored.. Please shoot me in my fucking head. Look at the twerp. Just look at him.. Oh yeah I'll fucking kill you you little shit. I'll make sure that bird goes straight into your ass boy. Well you better give up and yes you will too get in trouble. "I do not want to die." What a fucking brat.. Yeah life sucky sucky you little shit. That little shit just called me Wayne. Well you see here as he is talking (Andrew) I am typing everything he says while I'm typing what's below this to talk about what happened yesterday. That little shit called me Wayne again, he fucking did it again. No you are not unstoppable. My foot is going to go up your ass soon you little bitch. DIE FUCKER DIE!! Stop fucking calling me Wayne you fucking pickle butt. Shit-Stain. If you ever meet Andrew all you have to do is call him Dumbo. It sounds wrong to do but fucking do it anyway because he is a little shit-stain. I think he is about to break the computer. HA HA!! What a whiney little bitch he is. He screamed "I WANT CHICKEN" in the library. I think we are going to get kicked out of the library because shit-stain is so fucking loud.. He's going to run away. Stop saying you're fucking hacking into my system. Now he is fucking leaving. IS THERE A FUCKING GOD. He's going to leave. THANK FUCKING CHRIST!! Nope I was wrong. He is still here. MOTHERFUCKER!! Now he is ready to cry because Jeff is like ready to kill him. Hell I'd kill him.
Let's see here. Yesterday which was Friday I did practically nothing besides go with Jeff to watch him drive and this time he did pretty well. He didn't kill me and Bob. Then we came back home and I waited til I had to go to work. 4:40 came so thus I went to work. Work was fun let me tell you. We got our ass wooped because of course it was Friday and the other reason is I don't fucking know. Then after work Jeff and I went with Jeremy and Brittany to go to Kings to meet Kozak, Jeff Betes and his girlfriend, Shanna I think it is (sorry I don't know how to spell her name even right but keep in mind that my memory sucks ass). But anyways we stayed at Kings for a little bit and I wished that I could go to Jeff's concert thingy tonight. But I can't because of work. And yesterday was Jeremy's birthday. I got to get him something soon for tonight for a belated birthday present. But anyways I gotta go to work today in like three and a half hours so I have no fucking clue right now. Now he is really ready to leave because I'm fucking leaving so bye bye.