Damnit, lol

[xwrestler316]

Ok, well, I'm sorry bout my entry last night. I get a little angry sometimes and I only havwe a few people that I can vent to, so I will jsut compile it onto this LJ. Anyway, no, basically I just got really frustrated last night when I sucked ass at bowling and then when I think about even trying to hook up with a girl, it will show and something will go wrong. I thought about asking this one girl out, but she is just too damned ignorant about the relationship scene. So whatever, and I don't want to work 2 hard 4 it, cuz I'm jsut lazy like that. I don't know, I think I'm just a girl, the more I think about it. I look and read my words and I say, damn, this isn't your writing. Something is coming over me, and I just need to control it. I can do this, and I believe that good things will happen. I ahve my guitar stuff now, and I play that thing like crazy. I lvoe that guitar, it makes me so happy, and tired all at the same time. Maybe that's my girl 4 the time being. I dont' know. I stayed up til around 2:30 this morning playing it, fell asleep w/ it in my hands, then woke back up, and played right away till around 3:15. I felt awesome, and I didn't even care that I had to get up at 7 for work. It didn't even bother me, maybe I just need to get my old Brandon flare back (it's not a gay flare, but a happy flare, the crazy and wild boy). Ever since I've had to be more serious at work, I've been like this. I've taken things more seriously, my mom constantly asks me if I'm in a bad mood, work isn't nearly as fun as it was last year. I just don't feel like myself anymore. It's as if someone took my essence as an individual, and as ya'll know, I'm a individual, and that's all there is to it. anyway, I'm gunna go play my guitar, so I'll ttyl, hope u have a lovely day.

Love,
Brandon

P.S. "STD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"