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Once again, I haven't really updated in awhile. And I haven't updated in a long time about anything with a lot of thought, and worth reading. Might as well take care of that now. I'm in a weird mood and just feel like letting everything out. This may piss some people off, make others smile, and just bore the rest. Who knows. Warning, this could possibly be the longest entry I have made.
My dad is in the hospital again. This time overnight. He hurt his back at work about 2 weeks ago and all they have done is gave him medicine and sent him on his way. Every morning he wakes up and is in more pain than the day before, but they aren't doing anything about it. He finally went back to the ER and they kept him overnight. I talked to him on the phone this morning, but he didn't seem very happy. It made me realize how much of an ass I've been acting like. All he asks for is a little help getting up, or getting coffee and every single time I help him, but with an attitude. I couldn't stop thinking about it all day long at work and I hate myself for not visiting earlier. I got out at 2 and visited for about 3 hours until he took a nap. Its just things like this that seems like a hassle or an annoyance, but it shouldn't be like this at all.
After I left the hospital I went christmas shopping and talked to Stephanie about things. I don't think I gave her very good advice, but hopefully it helped her out atleast. I can understand what Tim means that he doesn't want a girlfriend, but I don't agree entirely with how everything worked out. It's not really my business, but I can understand why Stephanie is so hurt.
Ahh Rumors.... I hate them. I hate drama... The rumors will never stop, as much as you try to stop them. People always need to have something to talk about. It seems like the biggest rumors lately are about Eddie and Emily. I will be the first to admit I was a part of some of the rumors. I assumed things I probably shouldn't have just by reading surveys and away message, and taking them the wrong way. I've realized things aren't the way they seem. I know how Emily feels about Eddie and no matter what everyone else says, she's more excited than anyone else to see him. So why do we need rumors? Why cause drama? Its not really worth it.
I talked to Eddie this weekend. He's coming home in 2 weeks or less. I can't wait. I've already said it a few times, but I miss that kid. I miss being able to just walk across the street to hang out, and staying up till 4 in the morning making retarded pointless videos.
Brandy stopped by tonight on her way home from work for a couple minutes. We aren't hanging out until Thursday and then I probably won't see her again until Sunday. This week is going to be crazy. People have been complaining lately because I have been "ditching everyone" to hang out with her. Sorry that I barely see her during the week and I want to actually spend time with my girlfriend.... no... nevermind.. not sorry. If it upsets you, deal with it. We do still see each other atleast every other day, but theres always things going on that we barely get to just relax together. I miss that and if I get the chance to just relax and cuddle with her even for just a couple hours I'm taking it. I love that girl so much!
I started writing all of this earlier, and then Shawn came over and hung out. I was kinda bummed at the beginning of the night because I thought I was just gonna be sitting at home all night by myself. At first it seemed nice to just relax and watch tv by myself... haven't done it for awhile. Then it got boring. I'm glad Shawn came over. I'm glad we have become good friends. He is one of the only people I know that can really relate with me on shit. He's got some shit going on right now too... really sucks. I just hope he can make it through all of this as quick as possible. I know how he feels. I've been in the same position a few too many times.
It sucks knowing everyone is stressed and depressed about things going on in their lives: money issues, relationship problems, etc. I just want all of my friends to know that if they ever need anyone to talk to or anything I am always here. Like I've always said... I've got the greatest friends in the world and I would do anything for you!!