I think that I'm just scared to live
I am so tierd. But I don't want to go to sleep. I'm bored too. I wish that I didn't have school tomorow. There is going to be a subsitute and when Michael asked if we'd be able to sleep she said she didn't care. So maybe I can sleep then. This update is useless to my life, and probablly to all of yours too. This is strange! Two days in a row, I looked at the clock and saw that it was 10:13. And both times I thought, "Hey, isn't that a radio station or something?" And then I check the radio and there it is. That's pretty cool, isn't it? Haha. I thought it was. Anyways, today was really fun. Hung out with Devan, Shannon, Nicole, and Mikey. <3. It was strange. When I got home my brother was here with Weaks...And Rachel. Rachel was sitting in her car and my brother was leaning into it, and I swear they kissed so I got happy. But when my brother came in, he didn't look all that great. My mom said they were arguing. I want them to get back together. It would make him happy. My neck hurts a lot, and I have been online for Two hours and one minute with absolutley nothing to do. Maybe I'll go terrorize a chat room. OR maybe, I'll go make friends with people in a chat room and then get really really really close to them. Then tell them to meet me somewhere. But somewhere I wont be. Like...Six flags. Unless I go there. Then I will tell them to meet me in Victoria's Secret. Well let me tell you victoria, you are horrible at keeping secrets. You naked little bitch. I'll feel bad about that one later. Wow. What the hell am I doing? I wonder if anyone will read this. That would be pretty cool. One day I plan on making an entry on here that uses up like, all of your space. If I'm being nice I'll put it in an LJ cut. But, I hate those. (Probablly because I can't do it right and it always ends up the whole entry and then a bunch of random letters.) Today, I wasn't hungry when I got home. My mom came upstairs and yelled at me and told me I had to eat. So I cut up a hot dog and started walking back upstairs. Then my mom yelled at me and told me she wanted to watch me eat. She said I didn't eat enough, and gave me more food. (Macoroni salad) I asked her why she was doing that. She said she wants to see me eat because she never sees me eat, she thinks i'm anorexic. But I like food too much, and I don't look it. So, is she crazy? My nose itches a lot. I don't know if I said that yet. But it does. One time at band camp. Boy, do I wish I was watching that movie. But not really. It's too long, and writing this is exhausting me. I think I spelt that wrong, but come to think of it, I probablly spelt a lot of crao wrong on this thing. Hey, if anyone is still reading, I have an actual question. How do you know if you have an aim log or not? And how do you check it/delete it? They make me nervous. I'm afraid one day my mom will find it and read my conversations. That couldn't be good at all. But I am also afraid that she will find my journal. But she wont. Cause my nose is still itchy. As are my feet. And my hands hurt now. So does my elbow because my weight seems to be all resting apon it. Apon what a nice word. I like when I say "Lets go to the zoo." People get confused. Probablly because it is unexpected. But it's really not because today Shannon's brother Chris asked us where we were going. I opened my mouth and in a shock of horror, and echo of my thoughts came out of Devan's mouth! Wow. I like the way I told that story. I have no idea how long I have been writing for, or why I continue writing. But I tell my fingers to stop it, and they just keep twitching all over the keyboard. Which create words. What a philosophy. I wonder what the best philosophy ever made was. Probablly something about people. Like. People need FOOD. Thats a good one. I want dairy queen. Or a slurpee. I've wanted one sence we saw Sarah, Maryanna, and Ewe with them. And that was a while ago. Maybe my mom will go get me one. At this time of night Samantha, please. What are you even thinking of? I don't know but I'm sorry. If this entry anoyed the shit out of you, I am very sorry. But I am in a horribly odd mood. I guess it's about that time now. (SOMEONE SAID THAT TODAY) See you all on the flip side? Sure. Bye guys. <3
x-Sam-x
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