nobody said it was easy
ahh le sigh
i need some excitement in my life. im sick of the same old shit. wake up, go to school, come home, take a nap, eat dinner, watch tv, go to sleep, wake up, go to school.. etc... something exciting needs to be thrown into the mix. maybe wen i get my license that will change.. i can only hope...
im not gonna even get into how my report card turned out...
me and my mom are still ehh. last week we werent talking like at all because shes so childish. now we are sort of better.. kinda like fake better... like "im still mad at you but for the sake of fighting ill be nice" sort of better. shes taking these pills to make her stop smoking and conveniently enough they contain anti depressants. her mood has changed dramatically... thank god.
i need a boy... but we all know that already.
i wish my mom was a little more understanding wen it came to chris. she knows his situation and she knows his problems yet she has no sympathy for him at all whatsoever. she is not willign to help him in any way because she fears that her reputation is being hurt and he will bring me down. WHAT THE HELL? if i didnt have that boy there would be no chance on gods green earth i would be alive today. i know alot of people say that and usually are exaggerating but i really would not be alive. chris is my everything and when he feels pain so do i. my mom thinks that he is bringing me down in that way but my god woman have a heart. hes my best friend and he needs to be helped out. i want to offer him help any way that i can but she holds me back. well nothing can separate us.. not even her.
anyway... now onto a funny story....
so friday me maggie and john ask cj smith for a ride to wegmans. hes givign becca a ride too so its me becca maggie and john following cj out into the school parking lot. all of a sudden cj dissapears. i see becca john and maggie getting into a car so im like. mehh i guess he went to talk to someone. so i get in the back of this TINY 2 door car. me mags john in the back and becca in the front. squished as hell. picking up dave matthews cds and being like WTF CJ??? WAT IS THIS SHIT?? we TRASH the back seat. absolutely destroyed. we are in there for lik 5 minutes wondering where the hell cj is. all of a sudden theres a person standing next to beccas window. he taps on the window with his keys. becca rolls down the window thinkin wtf?? shes like umm yeaaa? its trae farrel. he says "ummm.. what are you doing in my car???" we all pause and look at eachother like OHHHH SHIIIIT. we book it out of this tiny little clown car trampling abercrombie and fitch boxes as we stumble. --- most embarrasing moment of my life right there
so yea.. thats that
PAYCE OUT
i need some excitement in my life. im sick of the same old shit. wake up, go to school, come home, take a nap, eat dinner, watch tv, go to sleep, wake up, go to school.. etc... something exciting needs to be thrown into the mix. maybe wen i get my license that will change.. i can only hope...
im not gonna even get into how my report card turned out...
me and my mom are still ehh. last week we werent talking like at all because shes so childish. now we are sort of better.. kinda like fake better... like "im still mad at you but for the sake of fighting ill be nice" sort of better. shes taking these pills to make her stop smoking and conveniently enough they contain anti depressants. her mood has changed dramatically... thank god.
i need a boy... but we all know that already.
i wish my mom was a little more understanding wen it came to chris. she knows his situation and she knows his problems yet she has no sympathy for him at all whatsoever. she is not willign to help him in any way because she fears that her reputation is being hurt and he will bring me down. WHAT THE HELL? if i didnt have that boy there would be no chance on gods green earth i would be alive today. i know alot of people say that and usually are exaggerating but i really would not be alive. chris is my everything and when he feels pain so do i. my mom thinks that he is bringing me down in that way but my god woman have a heart. hes my best friend and he needs to be helped out. i want to offer him help any way that i can but she holds me back. well nothing can separate us.. not even her.
anyway... now onto a funny story....
so friday me maggie and john ask cj smith for a ride to wegmans. hes givign becca a ride too so its me becca maggie and john following cj out into the school parking lot. all of a sudden cj dissapears. i see becca john and maggie getting into a car so im like. mehh i guess he went to talk to someone. so i get in the back of this TINY 2 door car. me mags john in the back and becca in the front. squished as hell. picking up dave matthews cds and being like WTF CJ??? WAT IS THIS SHIT?? we TRASH the back seat. absolutely destroyed. we are in there for lik 5 minutes wondering where the hell cj is. all of a sudden theres a person standing next to beccas window. he taps on the window with his keys. becca rolls down the window thinkin wtf?? shes like umm yeaaa? its trae farrel. he says "ummm.. what are you doing in my car???" we all pause and look at eachother like OHHHH SHIIIIT. we book it out of this tiny little clown car trampling abercrombie and fitch boxes as we stumble. --- most embarrasing moment of my life right there
so yea.. thats that
PAYCE OUT