Ramble rumble
I'm so exhausted.
Now I'm really starting to regret not studying hardcore enough at Gerstein.
Sigh.
I blame it on the UT boys for distracting me. Ha-ha!
I'm such an idiot sometimes, I swear. You know when you really want something, but this one thing grows into more things, and then you just end up wanting everything? Well...That's how I feels right now. Wanting everything but probably never getting anything. It's hard... to feel so indecisive, so uncommitted, and yet so naively greedy at the same time. They say, "Just do whatever that makes you happy." Yeah, right. If being happy is to sacrifice someone else's happiness or to be inconsiderate of others, I chose not to make a choice that is only in favor of myself. Although other people may not think the same way I do, that's my stance,
...that's me.
But then again, I'd just be lying right through my teeth if I were always only pleasing other people. Somehow I'd be some sort of shaken-up pop can waiting to explode. I don't want to lie, but I don't want to choose either. I want my options to widen instead of narrowing...Man, what a dilemma.
Did I go into the wrong career field? -- is what's on my mind these days. I'm passionate about caring for people, I love gaining medical knowledge... But I'm beginning to see my greatest weakness that could potentially cause me to fail miserably as a nurse.
And another thing, I gave my first Heparin injection today. I swear, who would shoot up if the high you get injecting other people is 1000000000x better? Not that I've ever used needles, but you know what I mean.
I just can't get enough of adrenaline, y'know?
Now I'm really starting to regret not studying hardcore enough at Gerstein.
Sigh.
I blame it on the UT boys for distracting me. Ha-ha!
I'm such an idiot sometimes, I swear. You know when you really want something, but this one thing grows into more things, and then you just end up wanting everything? Well...That's how I feels right now. Wanting everything but probably never getting anything. It's hard... to feel so indecisive, so uncommitted, and yet so naively greedy at the same time. They say, "Just do whatever that makes you happy." Yeah, right. If being happy is to sacrifice someone else's happiness or to be inconsiderate of others, I chose not to make a choice that is only in favor of myself. Although other people may not think the same way I do, that's my stance,
...that's me.
But then again, I'd just be lying right through my teeth if I were always only pleasing other people. Somehow I'd be some sort of shaken-up pop can waiting to explode. I don't want to lie, but I don't want to choose either. I want my options to widen instead of narrowing...Man, what a dilemma.
Did I go into the wrong career field? -- is what's on my mind these days. I'm passionate about caring for people, I love gaining medical knowledge... But I'm beginning to see my greatest weakness that could potentially cause me to fail miserably as a nurse.
And another thing, I gave my first Heparin injection today. I swear, who would shoot up if the high you get injecting other people is 1000000000x better? Not that I've ever used needles, but you know what I mean.
I just can't get enough of adrenaline, y'know?