i thought wrong

[xwolverine917]

well i guess i thought that cindy knew how much i loved her and that i will always be here for. but i guess not, cause apperently she still thinks that i want my ex back..i told her (again and again and again) i didn't and she says "well i don't feel like that" what the hell is that shit! to think i still want her...i fucking don't. would you get over it already. i hate it when you bring that shit up, cause all you do is make me feel like crap, telling me you can't trust me..telling me that you think im going to leave you...telling me i want my ex back...have you not seen the things i do for you or are you too busy wondering when im going to leave you... i make you feel so damn horrible all the time and your always "thinknig" about stuff the fine you know, don't deal with me. if your going to be so damn insecure with me. i try...key word here try... to make you happy, but all you ever do is point out how i fucked up and how much you don't trust me, and when you say trust has nothing to do with a relationship your 100% wrong. it has EVERYTHING to do with a relationship... yes you cannot trust someone and be with them.. but just look how miserable you are with me :(

and before you go and make some comment know this: i am not..NOT.. trying to say that you are a horrible person and that you trat me like shit..you just treat yourself like shit, and won't let yourself be happy for fear that things will fail ...take a risk...and if you realize im not what you want then leave so i can't make you feel so mistrusting anymore...