i know now what my dream job is to be . . .
i'm a mess today, a complete mess of lies and insecurities.
yet, i feel absolutely beautiful.
because i've lived - because i've experienced all i have this week. i feel beautiful inside.
or so i think.
trust is a difficult matter. it hurts me so much, because this has already happened before & i gave a second chance. typical me move, right? always giving second chances... and not once has it actually worked out.
28. have the second chance i give someone actually work.
there's a point in time where you just let go, let the fear escape from your fingertips and mine is still flowing.
but, i yet to give up. this heart is still willing
& i still love endlessly nonetheless.
spring break <3
it's been absolutely careless, memorable& really helping me pull out of this constant struggle that's been constant in my mind. late night rides in the car listening to music. the taste and scent of taco bell. being with my best of friends. looking at my constant and laughing at the exact same time with no words needing to be said. these are the things i live for, those moments that can mean nothing to everyone else except who you have them with. and that's how life is beautiful. and i'm always always forgetting that even with my optimistic outlook, and i always try to remind myself how i've felt when i was floating on happiness. this inevitable emotion that strikes my inner core, giving myself and my surroundings a whole new world of meaning on its own. it's absolutely inspiring & breathtaking.
and i know understand that experiencing all i have, especially in this past week, how to find things beautiful. absolutely beautiful in all their simplicity.
i had to record this feeling,
i never get to do that enough it seems.
yet, i feel absolutely beautiful.
because i've lived - because i've experienced all i have this week. i feel beautiful inside.
or so i think.
trust is a difficult matter. it hurts me so much, because this has already happened before & i gave a second chance. typical me move, right? always giving second chances... and not once has it actually worked out.
28. have the second chance i give someone actually work.
there's a point in time where you just let go, let the fear escape from your fingertips and mine is still flowing.
but, i yet to give up. this heart is still willing
& i still love endlessly nonetheless.
spring break <3
it's been absolutely careless, memorable& really helping me pull out of this constant struggle that's been constant in my mind. late night rides in the car listening to music. the taste and scent of taco bell. being with my best of friends. looking at my constant and laughing at the exact same time with no words needing to be said. these are the things i live for, those moments that can mean nothing to everyone else except who you have them with. and that's how life is beautiful. and i'm always always forgetting that even with my optimistic outlook, and i always try to remind myself how i've felt when i was floating on happiness. this inevitable emotion that strikes my inner core, giving myself and my surroundings a whole new world of meaning on its own. it's absolutely inspiring & breathtaking.
and i know understand that experiencing all i have, especially in this past week, how to find things beautiful. absolutely beautiful in all their simplicity.
i had to record this feeling,
i never get to do that enough it seems.