sleepless
Seriously going to have to get some sleep in the near future. Spent all damn day with doctors, which annoyed the shit out of me. However it's another step in a good direction for me. I'm keeping it private for now, mostly because Im trying not to let myself get too excited about anything. Money is the fucking devil, but hopefully that is going to start working out as well. Shell started at Charter this week and she seems to like it so far. I don't like what it has done to my sleep schedule, but I do like what it will do for our bank accounts. Less and less time all the time. Still not sure I've made up my mind either way on that other thing. I know that true unbiased reflection is a bitch. It's hard to come by, and when you really get there it's hard to sort it all out and put the appropriate tally marks in the columns. I don't know how to score this game, or if there is really ever a winner or a loser. Right now, I'm trying not to focus on it too much, and that alone has brought me more solace that you'll ever know. Off to sort out my basement for a yard sale. I am cleansing my physical space along with my emotional one...it feels fucking fantastic.