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how much must i live through just to get away?
all this tension and so alive.
how much must i live through just to get away?
all this pressure that makes your head feel so tired.
don't leave me alone.
i'm feeling so numb.
i need you to be here, i need you to call.
and everythings wrong, a beautiful shame.
and everythings ugly, hazy and grey.
doesn't it hurt?
trick and control you, deceive and destroy you.
doesn't it hurt?
does it make you feel inside, what you've never felt before?
did it promise you a life, but that left you all alone?
doesn't it hurt?
somethings wrong, trying to conquer these fears i thought were gone
and its been so long, i'm dying to live in a world i don't belong
i can't wait for someone to hear me
and wait for someone to touch me
and wait forever to be told
i'm forever alone.
on my own, i'll show myself what it means to be alone
and the tears i cry are washed away
all the scars are my disguise.
three sleepless nights
this isn't how its supposed to be
but you are so good at
taking your time to get back at me
i will wait for you forever
if you would just ask me
i thought that i could change you
but you changed me.
it doesn't feel right
holding someone elses hand
together on phone line
and living at two opposite ends.
it scares me to think
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me
but your head is elsewhere
and i'm talking enough for both of us
when will you see its not so easy for me
you're careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.
i never thought that you could say these words,
is this really happening?
i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
am i too lost to be saved?
am i too lost?
hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?
holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no ones there
say goodnight
dont be afraid
calling me, calling as you fade to black.
all this tension and so alive.
how much must i live through just to get away?
all this pressure that makes your head feel so tired.
don't leave me alone.
i'm feeling so numb.
i need you to be here, i need you to call.
and everythings wrong, a beautiful shame.
and everythings ugly, hazy and grey.
doesn't it hurt?
trick and control you, deceive and destroy you.
doesn't it hurt?
does it make you feel inside, what you've never felt before?
did it promise you a life, but that left you all alone?
doesn't it hurt?
somethings wrong, trying to conquer these fears i thought were gone
and its been so long, i'm dying to live in a world i don't belong
i can't wait for someone to hear me
and wait for someone to touch me
and wait forever to be told
i'm forever alone.
on my own, i'll show myself what it means to be alone
and the tears i cry are washed away
all the scars are my disguise.
three sleepless nights
this isn't how its supposed to be
but you are so good at
taking your time to get back at me
i will wait for you forever
if you would just ask me
i thought that i could change you
but you changed me.
it doesn't feel right
holding someone elses hand
together on phone line
and living at two opposite ends.
it scares me to think
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me
but your head is elsewhere
and i'm talking enough for both of us
when will you see its not so easy for me
you're careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.
i never thought that you could say these words,
is this really happening?
i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
am i too lost to be saved?
am i too lost?
hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?
holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight
closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no ones there
say goodnight
dont be afraid
calling me, calling as you fade to black.