hollywood hills and suburban thrills (5/?)
Title:hollywood hills & suburban thrills (5/?)
Author: xwbsmyhbx
Rating:PG13
Pairing: wisky and ryden
POV: third
Summary::william beckett has lived a very conservative life. this may all
change when he moves in with his best friend Sisky in Hollywood and figures out
who he really is. Then they meet two more best friends Ryan and Brendon who seem
to have... tension as well.
Disclaimer: faker than fake
Author Notes: these thoughts came randomly into my head one night so i thought i would post them
Brendon looked across the room in despair. Ryan was doing it again. It was completely normal. And for all intensive purposes it was completely right. All Ryan was doing was having a good time with girls. But that thought didn't make Brendon feel any less twisted, wrong or weird. All he wanted was to be attracted to that girl next to Ryan who kept on looking in Brendon's direction. But he couldn't and that's what killed his soul the most.
Apparentlty the slut thought he was looking at her. Well she probably didn't really think it but her excessive alchol consumption had blurred her... vision and made her believe Brendon was.
"Hey baby boy. What's your name?" the same Kellie asked tracing her finger over his cheek.
"Brendon." Instictively he moved her hand.
"You're not touchy feely i see. That's ok, you'll learn," she said holding his hand.
"I don't think I want to," Brendon said.
"What are you? Stupid or gay?"
Brendon had never admitted out loud that he was gay. He knew, but it was never spoken. But what the heck? This girl was obviously wasted and he couldn't contain himself anymore.
"I'm gay and in love with Ryan Ross."
"Oh ok. Bye fag," Kellie stumbled away then passed out on the grass outside the house.
He couldn't believe he had just said that so simply. Good thing Ryan had decided itd be fun to play garbage bowling, otherwise he'd be outed. And he didn't think he could handle that, especially since he had to find a job sometime this week.
Suddenly, everyone began to leave and when every person was gone Brendon could finally talk to Ryan.
"Why'd everyone leave?" Brendon asked.
"Well, first because I'm tired as hell."
Brendon's stomach sank.
"But also because you didn't look too happy and well I promised you nothing would change."
Bren's stomach began to float again. "Thanks."
"But they're all coming back tomorrow. Including my new girlfriend," Ryan smiled.
Such a rollercoaster of emotions.
Brendon gulped. "Al..Already?"
"Yea she's so damn hot, a great kisser and actually kind of smart this time," Ryan laughed and this time Brendon couldn't even fake a laugh.
"I'm going to go take a shower," Brendon ran to the bathroom.
Hollywood sucked just as much as Las Vegas, Hollywood was just less dirty.
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William had been locked in the bathroom for at least two hours. He'd been writing in his cell phone journal. (which who seriously does?) This wasn't so smart because Sisky borrowed his phone alot but life couldn't get any worse so what the hell?
Brendon was so blinded by his rage that he walked into the bathroom and slammed the door without looking.
"Why hello?" Will said.
"Oh. Hi Bill sorry I didn't know," Bren said.
"Didn't know what?"
"That you were in here."
"I could leave if everyone's gone."
"They are," Brendon said immediately regretting. "But don't go."
"Okay?"
"Sorry I hate parties. A lot."
"That's something we have in common," William said flipping his bangs back.
"Really?"
"Yep. Why else would I be hiding out in a bathroom?"
"I don't know," Brendon said. "Why do you go to parties if you hate them so much?"
William just looked down.
"Is it for girls?"
"No."
"Is it for guys?" Brendon asked immediately feeling awkward.
"No...well not... Sisky...shit."
"Wait are you like in love with Sisky or something?"
Silence.
Bill punched the wall in anger because that's what manly men do.
"I promised myself I'd never admit that. I'm not supposed to. Okay? I shouldn't. I was raised better. I know better. It's fucking Sisky. Sisky fucking Buisness." William shouted. Then softened. "I only realized 3 months ago. I don't even know if i'm like you know.. gay."
Brendon felt so bad for him. He felt that way almost 8 years ago. It sucks, like someone is scouring out your stomach like your a fetal pig being dissected.
"I'm going to tell you something. First off you can't be raised, you're born the way you are and no amount of bull shit can change that. Second, I'm going to tell you something not even Ryan knows. Or at least I hope not. I'm gay and in love with Ryan. I have been since I was 10. And it never got easier. And I just hoped that someday he'll change and love me but he never did. And its an endless pit that you cant climb out of. The truth is neither of the people we want are gay most likely and we can't change that," Brendon said. He'd never felt so constrained and liberated at the same time.
"But that doesn't change how confused I am."
"There's something that could."
"What?"
"Expirementation."
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first off dedicated to shannon. she helped me write this one. second sorry about the fetal pig reference. we're dissecting in bio this week. Also dedicated to ana who gave me the garbage bowling idea. by the way, Kellie won't be back. Someone dragged her home.
Author: xwbsmyhbx
Rating:PG13
Pairing: wisky and ryden
POV: third
Summary::william beckett has lived a very conservative life. this may all
change when he moves in with his best friend Sisky in Hollywood and figures out
who he really is. Then they meet two more best friends Ryan and Brendon who seem
to have... tension as well.
Disclaimer: faker than fake
Author Notes: these thoughts came randomly into my head one night so i thought i would post them
Brendon looked across the room in despair. Ryan was doing it again. It was completely normal. And for all intensive purposes it was completely right. All Ryan was doing was having a good time with girls. But that thought didn't make Brendon feel any less twisted, wrong or weird. All he wanted was to be attracted to that girl next to Ryan who kept on looking in Brendon's direction. But he couldn't and that's what killed his soul the most.
Apparentlty the slut thought he was looking at her. Well she probably didn't really think it but her excessive alchol consumption had blurred her... vision and made her believe Brendon was.
"Hey baby boy. What's your name?" the same Kellie asked tracing her finger over his cheek.
"Brendon." Instictively he moved her hand.
"You're not touchy feely i see. That's ok, you'll learn," she said holding his hand.
"I don't think I want to," Brendon said.
"What are you? Stupid or gay?"
Brendon had never admitted out loud that he was gay. He knew, but it was never spoken. But what the heck? This girl was obviously wasted and he couldn't contain himself anymore.
"I'm gay and in love with Ryan Ross."
"Oh ok. Bye fag," Kellie stumbled away then passed out on the grass outside the house.
He couldn't believe he had just said that so simply. Good thing Ryan had decided itd be fun to play garbage bowling, otherwise he'd be outed. And he didn't think he could handle that, especially since he had to find a job sometime this week.
Suddenly, everyone began to leave and when every person was gone Brendon could finally talk to Ryan.
"Why'd everyone leave?" Brendon asked.
"Well, first because I'm tired as hell."
Brendon's stomach sank.
"But also because you didn't look too happy and well I promised you nothing would change."
Bren's stomach began to float again. "Thanks."
"But they're all coming back tomorrow. Including my new girlfriend," Ryan smiled.
Such a rollercoaster of emotions.
Brendon gulped. "Al..Already?"
"Yea she's so damn hot, a great kisser and actually kind of smart this time," Ryan laughed and this time Brendon couldn't even fake a laugh.
"I'm going to go take a shower," Brendon ran to the bathroom.
Hollywood sucked just as much as Las Vegas, Hollywood was just less dirty.
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William had been locked in the bathroom for at least two hours. He'd been writing in his cell phone journal. (which who seriously does?) This wasn't so smart because Sisky borrowed his phone alot but life couldn't get any worse so what the hell?
Brendon was so blinded by his rage that he walked into the bathroom and slammed the door without looking.
"Why hello?" Will said.
"Oh. Hi Bill sorry I didn't know," Bren said.
"Didn't know what?"
"That you were in here."
"I could leave if everyone's gone."
"They are," Brendon said immediately regretting. "But don't go."
"Okay?"
"Sorry I hate parties. A lot."
"That's something we have in common," William said flipping his bangs back.
"Really?"
"Yep. Why else would I be hiding out in a bathroom?"
"I don't know," Brendon said. "Why do you go to parties if you hate them so much?"
William just looked down.
"Is it for girls?"
"No."
"Is it for guys?" Brendon asked immediately feeling awkward.
"No...well not... Sisky...shit."
"Wait are you like in love with Sisky or something?"
Silence.
Bill punched the wall in anger because that's what manly men do.
"I promised myself I'd never admit that. I'm not supposed to. Okay? I shouldn't. I was raised better. I know better. It's fucking Sisky. Sisky fucking Buisness." William shouted. Then softened. "I only realized 3 months ago. I don't even know if i'm like you know.. gay."
Brendon felt so bad for him. He felt that way almost 8 years ago. It sucks, like someone is scouring out your stomach like your a fetal pig being dissected.
"I'm going to tell you something. First off you can't be raised, you're born the way you are and no amount of bull shit can change that. Second, I'm going to tell you something not even Ryan knows. Or at least I hope not. I'm gay and in love with Ryan. I have been since I was 10. And it never got easier. And I just hoped that someday he'll change and love me but he never did. And its an endless pit that you cant climb out of. The truth is neither of the people we want are gay most likely and we can't change that," Brendon said. He'd never felt so constrained and liberated at the same time.
"But that doesn't change how confused I am."
"There's something that could."
"What?"
"Expirementation."
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first off dedicated to shannon. she helped me write this one. second sorry about the fetal pig reference. we're dissecting in bio this week. Also dedicated to ana who gave me the garbage bowling idea. by the way, Kellie won't be back. Someone dragged her home.