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Alright, emotions; you've really fucked up this time.
I officially hate having feelings for my ex, even though I love the fucking hell out of him and I know he feels the same.
It isn't cool that I don't get to see him enough... but, when probation is over (November 11th), I may just move in with him. He's old enough to get his own apartment, which he'll be doing soon. I explained what happened with my parents, and he said that I'm welcome any time for as long as need be. I also told him I'd find a job and help out with rent. I don't expect to live rent-free anywhere. But it makes me feel good to know that I have a place I can go when my parents tell me to get out. Or, in this case, "As soon as your probation is over.. you're OUT." We're both in generally bad situations with our parents. Somehow, even though you'd think it would make us both stressed and pissed and in too much of a bad mood to be around someone else who is pissed off... it doesn't. We understand each other, and it's cool that I can talk to someone who knows what I'm saying. I like the fact that, even though we broke up, we'd still do anything for each other and we're still there for each other through thick and thin.
I like the fact that I can have a strictly platonic (for the time being) relationship with my ex. He makes shit so easy. No pressure, no "friends-with-benefits" kind of thing expected, no expectations of anything MORE than a platonic relationship. It makes things easier to deal with, really.
I think I'm going to go visit him as soon as possible. We haven't hung out in God knows how long, and I really do miss the kid a lot.
But, goddamnit emotions; STOP MAKING THINGS SO COMPLICATED! Bastards. And thank you Chris, for making things so uncomplicated at the same time :D
I officially hate having feelings for my ex, even though I love the fucking hell out of him and I know he feels the same.
It isn't cool that I don't get to see him enough... but, when probation is over (November 11th), I may just move in with him. He's old enough to get his own apartment, which he'll be doing soon. I explained what happened with my parents, and he said that I'm welcome any time for as long as need be. I also told him I'd find a job and help out with rent. I don't expect to live rent-free anywhere. But it makes me feel good to know that I have a place I can go when my parents tell me to get out. Or, in this case, "As soon as your probation is over.. you're OUT." We're both in generally bad situations with our parents. Somehow, even though you'd think it would make us both stressed and pissed and in too much of a bad mood to be around someone else who is pissed off... it doesn't. We understand each other, and it's cool that I can talk to someone who knows what I'm saying. I like the fact that, even though we broke up, we'd still do anything for each other and we're still there for each other through thick and thin.
I like the fact that I can have a strictly platonic (for the time being) relationship with my ex. He makes shit so easy. No pressure, no "friends-with-benefits" kind of thing expected, no expectations of anything MORE than a platonic relationship. It makes things easier to deal with, really.
I think I'm going to go visit him as soon as possible. We haven't hung out in God knows how long, and I really do miss the kid a lot.
But, goddamnit emotions; STOP MAKING THINGS SO COMPLICATED! Bastards. And thank you Chris, for making things so uncomplicated at the same time :D