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Hey yall, two days ago I told my best friend about my eating disorder and about my cutting. I told her I've only cutted a few times and it's not big deal, but she freaked out on me. And when I told her about being EDNOS she said "Hillary, why are you so fixated on your weight? There are so many people that will just come up to me and tell me that you are gorgeous and sweet. What is so wrong with your body that you hate?" I told her that It's not just the weight that it's everything and that she can't understand why I do it, if I can't even fully understand why I do it. I think I really upset her and I even started balling when I was talking about it. That was the first time I have ever told somoene in person about my disorder. I love her shes my best friend and she's almost like my sister, I don't want her to hurt because of me, and I don't want her to worry either. I just felt really guilty and when I finally let it off my shoulders I felt extremely relieved.
♥Hillary..
♥Hillary..