Unforgiven II
i finally talked with sam g online and yeah by wat my subject says i wasnt forgiven...
xhazyxsoulx1800: hi sam
huntress45678: who is this???
xhazyxsoulx1800: sam
huntress45678: sam who???
xhazyxsoulx1800: remember we sorta went out
huntress45678: how did you get theis???
xhazyxsoulx1800: look wat i did then depresses me now
xhazyxsoulx1800: i feel like a complete asshole
xhazyxsoulx1800: angelica gave it to me
huntress45678: ok
xhazyxsoulx1800: so hows things/
xhazyxsoulx1800: *?
xhazyxsoulx1800: is this a bad time/
huntress45678: sorry kinda fighting with one of my old ass friends and she is bitching about thing that happened to her
xhazyxsoulx1800: oh its ok
huntress45678: I have not talk to her in a few years
xhazyxsoulx1800: ohh i c
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok i gotta show u wat i sent to her
xhazyxsoulx1800 wants to directly connect.
huntress45678 is now directly connected.
xhazyxsoulx1800: ----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Sam
Date: Nov 11, 2004 02:33 PM
the thing that happened with me and sam g still bothers me cuz it was me that did all the wrong doing to her i was such a jerk to her and i hate myself for that...i asked her to do things like to kiss me and to kinda strip for me and i got her into a relationship we both werent ready for...she told me to not tell anyone that we went out and i told everyone...she said we should start off as friends then if things r good we'll go out but i rushed her to go out with me...i wish i could tell her how i fell about wat happened and tell her i'm sry but something is always holding me back and i dont kno if she will forgive me...i dont want to go out with her again or anything maybe possibly me and her can start all over and if she wants to and only then we can go out but she prob has a bf and its ok i'm kinda going after other girls right now but her forgiveness would save me from the last bit of depression that creeps onto me...robyn wouldnt forgive me and she still hates me so i failed there
xhazyxsoulx1800: yea thats mostly how i feel about that its the only thing still bothering me
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm sorry
huntress45678: ok hold on a sec another freind is have a paniceattact
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: ok this is the thing
huntress45678: one I am not in a arear where I want a BF so I am stal right at the monent
xhazyxsoulx1800: i dont wish to go out with u enless u wanted to
huntress45678: 2. In a way I cant forgive you for what you did but I can tell you to move on a try to forget it
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: it happened in the past it donse not have to change your life for ever
xhazyxsoulx1800: true
huntress45678: 3. A peace of me just cant excepet what hapopened but I put it in my past and tryed as hard as I could to for get that
huntress45678: you are very nice but I cant frogive that
xhazyxsoulx1800: same here
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: it took to much to try and forget it and I dint want to remember
xhazyxsoulx1800: neither did i
xhazyxsoulx1800: it jus keeps coming back to me
huntress45678: the easy way to 4get it is to just think of other people
xhazyxsoulx1800: ive done alot of dumb things in the past but to me that was the worst
xhazyxsoulx1800: ive tried
huntress45678: then i dont know what to tell you
huntress45678: if you have tried then I cant help you
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: all I can do is forgive it
huntress45678: *forget
huntress45678: it happened just try to forget
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok i will
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm glad we did have good times together thou
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'll try to think of those instead of the bad ones
huntress45678: another thing I cant forgive is to getting in to the fight at camp with my oplder brother
xhazyxsoulx1800: the truth is i had problems when i was little
xhazyxsoulx1800: i was on ridaline
xhazyxsoulx1800: and my dad took me off
xhazyxsoulx1800: and everythign went to hell
huntress45678: that is not an excuse
xhazyxsoulx1800: well its wat was
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm sorry i did it thou
huntress45678: you had to learn how to controle your anger
xhazyxsoulx1800: i regret it
xhazyxsoulx1800: i have
huntress45678: I believer you but I just cant
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm a different person now
xhazyxsoulx1800: its ok
huntress45678: I am sorry but I got to go
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok bye it was nice talking to u again
huntress45678 direct connection is closed.
huntress45678 signed off at 10:56:34 AM.
i dont deserve forgiveness i hate my past sooo much
xhazyxsoulx1800: hi sam
huntress45678: who is this???
xhazyxsoulx1800: sam
huntress45678: sam who???
xhazyxsoulx1800: remember we sorta went out
huntress45678: how did you get theis???
xhazyxsoulx1800: look wat i did then depresses me now
xhazyxsoulx1800: i feel like a complete asshole
xhazyxsoulx1800: angelica gave it to me
huntress45678: ok
xhazyxsoulx1800: so hows things/
xhazyxsoulx1800: *?
xhazyxsoulx1800: is this a bad time/
huntress45678: sorry kinda fighting with one of my old ass friends and she is bitching about thing that happened to her
xhazyxsoulx1800: oh its ok
huntress45678: I have not talk to her in a few years
xhazyxsoulx1800: ohh i c
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok i gotta show u wat i sent to her
xhazyxsoulx1800 wants to directly connect.
huntress45678 is now directly connected.
xhazyxsoulx1800: ----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Sam
Date: Nov 11, 2004 02:33 PM
the thing that happened with me and sam g still bothers me cuz it was me that did all the wrong doing to her i was such a jerk to her and i hate myself for that...i asked her to do things like to kiss me and to kinda strip for me and i got her into a relationship we both werent ready for...she told me to not tell anyone that we went out and i told everyone...she said we should start off as friends then if things r good we'll go out but i rushed her to go out with me...i wish i could tell her how i fell about wat happened and tell her i'm sry but something is always holding me back and i dont kno if she will forgive me...i dont want to go out with her again or anything maybe possibly me and her can start all over and if she wants to and only then we can go out but she prob has a bf and its ok i'm kinda going after other girls right now but her forgiveness would save me from the last bit of depression that creeps onto me...robyn wouldnt forgive me and she still hates me so i failed there
xhazyxsoulx1800: yea thats mostly how i feel about that its the only thing still bothering me
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm sorry
huntress45678: ok hold on a sec another freind is have a paniceattact
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: ok this is the thing
huntress45678: one I am not in a arear where I want a BF so I am stal right at the monent
xhazyxsoulx1800: i dont wish to go out with u enless u wanted to
huntress45678: 2. In a way I cant forgive you for what you did but I can tell you to move on a try to forget it
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: it happened in the past it donse not have to change your life for ever
xhazyxsoulx1800: true
huntress45678: 3. A peace of me just cant excepet what hapopened but I put it in my past and tryed as hard as I could to for get that
huntress45678: you are very nice but I cant frogive that
xhazyxsoulx1800: same here
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: it took to much to try and forget it and I dint want to remember
xhazyxsoulx1800: neither did i
xhazyxsoulx1800: it jus keeps coming back to me
huntress45678: the easy way to 4get it is to just think of other people
xhazyxsoulx1800: ive done alot of dumb things in the past but to me that was the worst
xhazyxsoulx1800: ive tried
huntress45678: then i dont know what to tell you
huntress45678: if you have tried then I cant help you
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok
huntress45678: all I can do is forgive it
huntress45678: *forget
huntress45678: it happened just try to forget
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok i will
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm glad we did have good times together thou
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'll try to think of those instead of the bad ones
huntress45678: another thing I cant forgive is to getting in to the fight at camp with my oplder brother
xhazyxsoulx1800: the truth is i had problems when i was little
xhazyxsoulx1800: i was on ridaline
xhazyxsoulx1800: and my dad took me off
xhazyxsoulx1800: and everythign went to hell
huntress45678: that is not an excuse
xhazyxsoulx1800: well its wat was
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm sorry i did it thou
huntress45678: you had to learn how to controle your anger
xhazyxsoulx1800: i regret it
xhazyxsoulx1800: i have
huntress45678: I believer you but I just cant
xhazyxsoulx1800: i'm a different person now
xhazyxsoulx1800: its ok
huntress45678: I am sorry but I got to go
xhazyxsoulx1800: ok bye it was nice talking to u again
huntress45678 direct connection is closed.
huntress45678 signed off at 10:56:34 AM.
i dont deserve forgiveness i hate my past sooo much