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well 2day was ok after skool me and my sis went to burger king with ethan and ralph it was ight. i miss kristine abit but then again i nvr got closer to her and everything i did i still havent moved up at all but i'm thankful she came to bk that other day and to my house i prob bored the shit outta her and in other news daniela cant goto the monster truck show either my life is great alison isnt talking to me much and i'm watching feighnhight 9/11 which is depressing me cuz bush is an asshole and only cares about money and the fucking oil i think i'm gunna buy an electric car now. i'm still looking for a girlfriend but i dought i'll find one. sure the girls i'm close to now r great friends but i dunno if i could go out with them like with kristine i still like her but now and then its not as much as it used to be its like waring off shes not 100% my type anymore but then again neither is daneila but i like them but then i like alison(from wat i kno about her) blah i jus wanna have a girlfriend so i can feel loved by someone outside of my family and have someone who would listein to my problems and could tell me theirs and i could cuddle with her and keep her happy and jus spend time with them and we'd both be happy 2gether and have alot of stuff in common i'm not gunna give up thou ive gotten farther than i ever have and to be honest i nvr offical had a real gf and it jus bothers me and the thing with me and sam g i wanna prove to myself that, wat happened wont happen again and god dammit i feel soo lonley. the reasons i'm still living is cuz i wont give up and i have done better in things like wrestling and now i talk to girls and life is alot better and if i did kill myself id hurt alot of people and i wouldnt like that at all. i like my life its interesting if ud understand alot of it and its alot better than it used to be and pretty soon i'll be in college and be in wrestling if i dont give up i can do anything...