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[xwalkingoutx]

things are lame.

really really lame.

I miss having friends.

I hate being stubborn.

i hate always worrying.

I hate being bored.

I like spending time with people.

I need to go to a show.

I worry about getting a job.

And my license.

blah blah blah.

I hate complaining so much.

things are very up and down right now, and I fucking hate it. I feel like Im having mood swings. Do guys get those? I need to have some fun. I need to go do something crazy. I've been spending a lot of time with Lauren, which is fun, don't get me wrong. She's helped keep me sane. But at the same time, i think I'm going insane. but I need to like go out somewhere. Anyone wanna ahng out and go to the mall? or Like downtown Park ridge? or Arlington heights. Most of my family forgot about my birthday. Im sick of this house, and this computer, and mostly msyelf.

I like venting and pretending people care.

I'm sick of getting put down.

but sometimes I feel like I deserve it.

And others I feel like I don't.

I need to start sticking up for myself.

And making myself happy.

blahblahblah.

Up and Down Up and Down Up and Down.

I'm really getting sick of it.

It pisses me off how people don't care.

This isn't a cry for attention or appreciation.

But i just need someone to care.

Chances are if you cared enough to read this, i miss you.