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Let me just say that this has been one of the very worst weeks for me emotionally, physically, and academically.
So, today I actually had 2 meals! Go me. I feel like I've been on an involuntary eating disorder just cuz I can't seem to eat food and I've lost a whole lot of weight. Kinda scary. But I'm trying so hard to eat so don't you guys worry about me..I'm not trying to be anorexic or anything. I like me the way I am (sometimes).
Still have my headache from Tuesday night so that's a downer to say the very least.
Getting bad grades so that's a real downer. Bad grades like 2 Cs and an F so don't tell me I'm still a super genius. I don't wanna hear it okay?
Okay and here's what you guys have all been waiting for. Yes I broke up with Ryan today. It wasn't anything more or less than I don't think I should have a boyfriend. We all know it's human nature to desperately want what we can't have and in that desperation we kinda take things out of perspective and make them out to be way better than they are. The truth is...being single is fun. I don't think I realized it...cuz I've never really had a boyfriend and I didn't know what it was like. But now that I know...I'm not ready to have a boyfriend at all. I just can't be tied down with that obligation when there are so many other things going on in my life that require so much of my attention. I can't be distracted by things. I'm just getting too overwhelmed.
Anyway, I hope that helped all of you to understand my extremely sucky week.
P.S. slightly new layout cuz the old one doesn't feel quite appropriate anymore :-/