The calm after the storm
I haven't updated in quite a while. That is because I refuse to make bitching posts, because I know they get old. I know I will bitch in this post though, but I am just going to let you know what I have been up to lately/how life has been treating me.
Stress is something that hasn't been a stranger lately... Last week on my way to school I received a speeding ticket. I was upset, but realized I was due, I speed a lot and never get caught. It was for 17 over the speed limit, which you will find to not be slim in the first place. My mother was suprisingly not all that mad.. mainly because I am the one who has to pay for it. Well it doesn't stop there. On Friday night I was on my way to Columbia, when I saw a car's headlights flash on. I was going 54 in a 35 by my road, how I always do... but on this night there was an officer of the law... He came to collect my info, and I couldn't find my license.. GREAT HUH! He said "You.. don't have you license?" "Well I do, but in a min you will realize I was pulled over the other day, and when I got it out I misplaced it, but it is here somewhere." So he used my school ID, and when he came back I had found my license. He issued me a ticket of course "I really couln't let you off with a warning that much over, I'm sorry." "Yeah, I understand, and thank you for not being a jerk about the whole situation." Really nice cop, but not a nice ticket. So... I def did not inform my mom of this ticket. She keeps bugging me to pay the other one, so tomorrow I get paid, and I will pay the one I got on Friday off, and then hopefully get the other one fixed =/. I am really upset because... I don't have money for this, I am looking at like 300 dollars, it is crazy =/. Speaking of money, and wasting it on my stupidity... I haven't been going to school... Yeah that's right. I tell my parents I am, but I really go to the mall or find something to do in that way, I am wasting my dad's money on tuition, and mainly, fucking up my future!!! I was already failing 2 of the classes so I quit going to them.. I should have dropped them which would have saved me money, and I wouldn't have gotten an F, but no I am a fucking idiot. Now the only 2 classes I have left I don't go to. My photo paper got stolen in photography, and I don't have 70 dollars to purchase more, and I was behind, that pretty much made up my mind on quitting. Then in computer class, I just hate driving in there just for that, and I just hate going to it, I know how to type.. but then I guess I shouldn't have signed up for it. I have no idea what I am going to do about school.. My parents are going to honestly kill me when they find out...
I haven't talked to Amy, or hung out with her really in about 2 weeks. That is completely unheard of with us. So I don't know what is going to go on with that.. only time will tell. On top of all of that, Michelle and I have drifted, which I also thought would never happen, but I seem to be REALLY good at screwing everything up lately. And I hope that I can somehow rebuild our friendship, atleast better than what we have now!!!
I went tanning the other day for the first time in quite a while.. Me, being retarded and not thinking.. "Maybe since I haven't been in a while I shouldn't go 20 mins." Well I did anyway, and now I am terribly burnt.
I know that I said I wouldn't bitch.. and that is all that I just did.. So let me try to move onto the positive points lately.
I FINALLY GOT TO TALK TO LESLIE!! I still miss her sooo much, but am glad I got to talk to her. She just unblocked me the other night and said hi, I was ecstatic! Then some problems started between, her, and Briana, Amy, and I... that was BAD, but then they slowly worked out. But getting to talk to Leslie was much needed.. I just hope eventually she wants to hang out...
I got to see Stephanie the other day, my childhood best friend of 13 years. She works at Great Clips now!! She had me come over to her house and she did my hair. She redyed it black due to my roots. And did my bangs with bleach, and they look blondish, brownish, reddish! I like it, I just miss how blonde the bangs were.
I am really looking forward to Friday. It is Rhi's b-day, and it is going to be a blast! I am going with Briana and Jenn, and we are going to be the coolest people at the flippin party!!! And then Saturday, Briana, Jenn, Kaisey, and CHIPPERS, are going to Pynk!! I am really excited about that also. It should be a lot of fun
Yesterday I skipped school and went to see Briana. We watched Dr. Phil, which talked about parents putting their kids in beauty pageants and such, I enjoyed sitting there and watching it. I hadn't watched daytime T.V. is SO long, I might have to look into that. Then we watched Oprah... It was really sad, and I don't want to talk about, but just know that it was sad. "That is what I want to be when I grow up.. A smart black woman!" We went to Mcdonalds, WalMart, and watched some of the L word, and then I made my journey home.
Well.. I guess that is about it, though I know I am forgetting things... Sorry for all the bitching.. hopefully it will stop soon.
<3
"If looks could really kill, them my profession would be starring"
Stress is something that hasn't been a stranger lately... Last week on my way to school I received a speeding ticket. I was upset, but realized I was due, I speed a lot and never get caught. It was for 17 over the speed limit, which you will find to not be slim in the first place. My mother was suprisingly not all that mad.. mainly because I am the one who has to pay for it. Well it doesn't stop there. On Friday night I was on my way to Columbia, when I saw a car's headlights flash on. I was going 54 in a 35 by my road, how I always do... but on this night there was an officer of the law... He came to collect my info, and I couldn't find my license.. GREAT HUH! He said "You.. don't have you license?" "Well I do, but in a min you will realize I was pulled over the other day, and when I got it out I misplaced it, but it is here somewhere." So he used my school ID, and when he came back I had found my license. He issued me a ticket of course "I really couln't let you off with a warning that much over, I'm sorry." "Yeah, I understand, and thank you for not being a jerk about the whole situation." Really nice cop, but not a nice ticket. So... I def did not inform my mom of this ticket. She keeps bugging me to pay the other one, so tomorrow I get paid, and I will pay the one I got on Friday off, and then hopefully get the other one fixed =/. I am really upset because... I don't have money for this, I am looking at like 300 dollars, it is crazy =/. Speaking of money, and wasting it on my stupidity... I haven't been going to school... Yeah that's right. I tell my parents I am, but I really go to the mall or find something to do in that way, I am wasting my dad's money on tuition, and mainly, fucking up my future!!! I was already failing 2 of the classes so I quit going to them.. I should have dropped them which would have saved me money, and I wouldn't have gotten an F, but no I am a fucking idiot. Now the only 2 classes I have left I don't go to. My photo paper got stolen in photography, and I don't have 70 dollars to purchase more, and I was behind, that pretty much made up my mind on quitting. Then in computer class, I just hate driving in there just for that, and I just hate going to it, I know how to type.. but then I guess I shouldn't have signed up for it. I have no idea what I am going to do about school.. My parents are going to honestly kill me when they find out...
I haven't talked to Amy, or hung out with her really in about 2 weeks. That is completely unheard of with us. So I don't know what is going to go on with that.. only time will tell. On top of all of that, Michelle and I have drifted, which I also thought would never happen, but I seem to be REALLY good at screwing everything up lately. And I hope that I can somehow rebuild our friendship, atleast better than what we have now!!!
I went tanning the other day for the first time in quite a while.. Me, being retarded and not thinking.. "Maybe since I haven't been in a while I shouldn't go 20 mins." Well I did anyway, and now I am terribly burnt.
I know that I said I wouldn't bitch.. and that is all that I just did.. So let me try to move onto the positive points lately.
I FINALLY GOT TO TALK TO LESLIE!! I still miss her sooo much, but am glad I got to talk to her. She just unblocked me the other night and said hi, I was ecstatic! Then some problems started between, her, and Briana, Amy, and I... that was BAD, but then they slowly worked out. But getting to talk to Leslie was much needed.. I just hope eventually she wants to hang out...
I got to see Stephanie the other day, my childhood best friend of 13 years. She works at Great Clips now!! She had me come over to her house and she did my hair. She redyed it black due to my roots. And did my bangs with bleach, and they look blondish, brownish, reddish! I like it, I just miss how blonde the bangs were.
I am really looking forward to Friday. It is Rhi's b-day, and it is going to be a blast! I am going with Briana and Jenn, and we are going to be the coolest people at the flippin party!!! And then Saturday, Briana, Jenn, Kaisey, and CHIPPERS, are going to Pynk!! I am really excited about that also. It should be a lot of fun
Yesterday I skipped school and went to see Briana. We watched Dr. Phil, which talked about parents putting their kids in beauty pageants and such, I enjoyed sitting there and watching it. I hadn't watched daytime T.V. is SO long, I might have to look into that. Then we watched Oprah... It was really sad, and I don't want to talk about, but just know that it was sad. "That is what I want to be when I grow up.. A smart black woman!" We went to Mcdonalds, WalMart, and watched some of the L word, and then I made my journey home.
Well.. I guess that is about it, though I know I am forgetting things... Sorry for all the bitching.. hopefully it will stop soon.
<3
"If looks could really kill, them my profession would be starring"