ONE MORE DAY!!!
Well, things have been good! Nothing I can complain about or rant about. Just been so lonely and sad… because I am missing Bill my missing piece to my heart, soul, and life so much more now since we started our month break, which needs tomorrow. With a whole month without him it’s been a hellish pain but a good one. Made me realize how much I need him and love him, even if during those times I was torn about leaving him and just ending our relationship. For so many different reasons, but then again out of all my MANY MANY Relationships through my life… 2 of them have been the best thing ever to happened to me. One being the relationship that I am in right now and my past relationship with Cross! They both taught me how I am suppose to be treated and cared for which was something a lot of my pass relationships never did. I guess being in abusive relationship at a very young age and always finding another bitch or asshole that does the same thing wasn’t a good thing. I lost my self worth in it all. They both have been my friends for many many years which I am truly thankful for. I never use to date my friends before… because I was so scared to loose them! Then I realized that slowly all my friends now were an ex and that I still managed to stay friends with them after a relationship. I thought well if I can make a friendship after a relationship that I should be able to keep a friendship if it evolves into a relationship. Now the best & happiest relationships I have ever had in my life have been with friends. My relationship now… is very unclear and unknowing! I am not going to give up on it without trying my hardest and putting everything I have into it. If I can spend the rest of my life with Bill then YAY! If not then I hope we can stay friends for the rest of our lives. I will always wish him the best in life. That will NEVER change. I know now he holds my heart… we will keep if he wants to for the rest of his life or for as long as I love him as much as I do. If we EVER end… he will keep my heart to protect it and hold it until I find the one I am to be with for the rest of my life. I trust him with my heart and life, because he was my best friend as well.
Well Bill is off shooting their music video for their first single off their second album… I am so happy he is out there doing what he loves and has a very deep true passion for. I am so very proud of him and will support him as well as his twin brother Tom! Since Tom is also my friend as well. I never want Bill to choose between me and his music. His music is how he expresses himself and his feelings. I never want to take that away from him… be like him taking away my writings! I don’t know what going to happen to us once we get to really talk about things… but we’ll see! I just can’t wait to connect with him once again. I waited all these days and weeks that felt like months and years! Whatever happens to us good or bad it’s meant to be and I will deal with it all as best as I can!
Wolfgang… Hahahaha! Where this guy came from… how he entered my life… we’ll never know. We have tried to figure it out and came up with nothing. We thin it was because of Rob… I need to thank Rob for that. Because Wolfgang is a great wonderful friend *hearts* Wolfgang makes me happy and makes me laugh. I can never be sad or mad around him for too long… and most of the time we are laughing and joking around. He just someone that came out of nowhere that just makes my life easier and more eventful! Never a dull time when we are together… plus he lets me do a lot of stuff to him! Plus he is my Buttercup and I am his Wesley! Kind of funny how we get asked a lot if we are brother and sister… because we act like it at times! I ONLY HIT HIM CAUSE I LOVE HIM! I just have to leave my mark on him somehow… well try to leave my mark lol!
Well Bill is off shooting their music video for their first single off their second album… I am so happy he is out there doing what he loves and has a very deep true passion for. I am so very proud of him and will support him as well as his twin brother Tom! Since Tom is also my friend as well. I never want Bill to choose between me and his music. His music is how he expresses himself and his feelings. I never want to take that away from him… be like him taking away my writings! I don’t know what going to happen to us once we get to really talk about things… but we’ll see! I just can’t wait to connect with him once again. I waited all these days and weeks that felt like months and years! Whatever happens to us good or bad it’s meant to be and I will deal with it all as best as I can!
Wolfgang… Hahahaha! Where this guy came from… how he entered my life… we’ll never know. We have tried to figure it out and came up with nothing. We thin it was because of Rob… I need to thank Rob for that. Because Wolfgang is a great wonderful friend *hearts* Wolfgang makes me happy and makes me laugh. I can never be sad or mad around him for too long… and most of the time we are laughing and joking around. He just someone that came out of nowhere that just makes my life easier and more eventful! Never a dull time when we are together… plus he lets me do a lot of stuff to him! Plus he is my Buttercup and I am his Wesley! Kind of funny how we get asked a lot if we are brother and sister… because we act like it at times! I ONLY HIT HIM CAUSE I LOVE HIM! I just have to leave my mark on him somehow… well try to leave my mark lol!