My Wonderful Husband, Alex Frost Noir.
My wonderful husband, Alex Frost Noir. He is my dearest lover, My best friends, and all around pillar in my life. As I have said many times in my life since meting him. Am so lucky to have him and his love. He is so dear to me and all that I have needed. We are just best friends who are very close and loving. We say we are married cause we are just silly nutters and close and loveing enough to joke around to call each other husband and wife aka Hubby & Wifey. I also bare his last name I added it on with a dash thou to my real last name so it now goes “Static-Noir” I adore looking at it. Thou I am really deeply and madly in love with him. I know nothing will come of this. I also don’t want to ruin our friendship and am sure he does as well. Just he always there for me. Sure he was put me on the back burner a few times but I let him know that and he feels bad and just makes it up to me. God I love him and I wish I lived closer to him so I could just spend time with him as much as I could. Be so nice to do that just spend a full day just me and him doing anything and everything. Just he means so much to me. I want to go vist him next summer and I hope I get the chance to do that as well. But yeah the other night the below convo between me and him took place. The names of our messagers have been changed to insure our safety as well. Anyways I was upset with luke cause of my own fault. For having doubts and thinking so badly. I feel if I lose him it’s my fault and I hate myself for it. Plus the fact I doubt his feelings for me that am just there for him to lean on and to be his safety net. Am not sure but I hope to one day know. I can’t help it just been hurt so much. But with alex he gives me hope when all seems lost. He saves me from my way of crazed. And as you can see he really does care for me how I need to be at times. His arms are there always and forever to hold on too and I adore him! He is my hubby dear love. *blows kisses* I sometimes wonder how can I repay him... he is my pillar and am his. I love him so dear! Anyways read on! ps... i hate the girl he like so much and she just hurt him and the fact HE IS MINE *clings to* if it wasn;t for the distance and the fact we don't want to ruin our friendship i swear we would make an awesome couple... maybe actually marry and i can lost the dash in my last name and just use Noir...
Haven: mmm I hate myself
Alex: why so?
Haven: cause am no good
Alex : *sad*
Haven: I can't make anyone happy
Haven: I make everyone sad... no one cares for me
Haven: am so alone
Alex : hey hey hey
Alex : im here arent I?
Haven: *shakes my head and looks downs and cries* you got your life I just drag you down
Alex : hey hey, you don’t do anything wrong in my life... you just open my eyes... you’re antimainstream, you’re the people I love.... my real race
Haven: yeah right... you are just saying that to make me feel better. beside you can find others
Alex : if I didn’t care about you, you really think I would lay down my bass to the side to talk with you? im alex, I love my guitars more than what I love myself... so think about it
Haven: *breaks down crying* am tried... of giving all I am to them and getting just lies and fakiness back
Alex : *hugs* sshhh shh, calm down now, I know it hurts, I know it does hurt like hell... but believe me, we will have our revenge either that or we will be prized sevenfold.....
Haven: *hides face in your chest and cries softly* what did we do to get all this, what did we do, where we bad, did we do something wrong?
Alex : if I had the answer id give them to you... but im just another one, pushed away just like you.... hiding in the darkness like some vampire...
Haven: in the dark they don't see the scars and the tears we bare... they don't see the true us we have to offer them
Alex : yes my girl... in the dark no one can see us, thus... we cant be hurt
Haven: it's cold here, I don't want to be like that... am scared to be
Alex : I am too... im scared of being in the dark forever, but im as well scared of being hurt, so everyday I try to go into the light
Alex : but return back here, its cold, I know, but it’s a comfy place where I can stay til I find a home out there
Haven: if there is one... and if the light doesn't burn. if there really a place out there our race can call home... out there?
Alex : I dunno yet, but if there isn’t.... im making it
Haven: *leans head on your should and sniffles* you always hold me up just when am ready to fall then I feel like am going to break
Alex : I do?... well im glad I can help... we are creatures of the dark haven, we are different
Alex : but still we deserve equalness... and love
Haven: but are we every really going to get? seems like an endless battle something we can't never win
Alex : win or not... im fighting this for you me and everyone like us
Haven: *sighs softly and plays with your hands* keep on fighting then... I do what I can, but one of the weakest ones here... there not much I can do or do for anyone but get in the way
Alex : you don’t get in my way
Alex : but still ill fight....
Alex : for now I gotta go to sleep girl, im tired
The following are pics of him, my dear love hubby Alex!
heheh so cute... *kiss*
I Say It... LOUD & PROUND! This Is My Hubby Alex Frost Noir! *hearts*
Aww makes me wish I was there sitting next to him with my head on his shoulder... be a cute pic... maybe someday... for now it is still hot!
King Of Spades... King to me... so am the Queen Of Spades... Love Him So *kisses*
He Is Missing Me... Awwies I Miss Him Dearly As Well *hugs*
Awwwies looks to sad and lonely... I wish I was there so he could be in my arms so I can hold him and tell him everything is going to be ok and that am here for him always.
He can DRIVE! Haha has an awesome car... that is so cute! I will drive it one day hahaha! He is a speed demon... yay!
This is one o f my fav pics of him... so hot and yay makes me so happy and proud to call him Hubby and mine! ALSO look at the shirt has our last name... he is sending me one too. Am so happy! Can’t wait!
Him and his band performing... am going to see him play and sing one day... go I love him... he is going to make it big one day wait and see trust me. And I will be so happy to be his wifey and call him my hubby dearest!
Haven: mmm I hate myself
Alex: why so?
Haven: cause am no good
Alex : *sad*
Haven: I can't make anyone happy
Haven: I make everyone sad... no one cares for me
Haven: am so alone
Alex : hey hey hey
Alex : im here arent I?
Haven: *shakes my head and looks downs and cries* you got your life I just drag you down
Alex : hey hey, you don’t do anything wrong in my life... you just open my eyes... you’re antimainstream, you’re the people I love.... my real race
Haven: yeah right... you are just saying that to make me feel better. beside you can find others
Alex : if I didn’t care about you, you really think I would lay down my bass to the side to talk with you? im alex, I love my guitars more than what I love myself... so think about it
Haven: *breaks down crying* am tried... of giving all I am to them and getting just lies and fakiness back
Alex : *hugs* sshhh shh, calm down now, I know it hurts, I know it does hurt like hell... but believe me, we will have our revenge either that or we will be prized sevenfold.....
Haven: *hides face in your chest and cries softly* what did we do to get all this, what did we do, where we bad, did we do something wrong?
Alex : if I had the answer id give them to you... but im just another one, pushed away just like you.... hiding in the darkness like some vampire...
Haven: in the dark they don't see the scars and the tears we bare... they don't see the true us we have to offer them
Alex : yes my girl... in the dark no one can see us, thus... we cant be hurt
Haven: it's cold here, I don't want to be like that... am scared to be
Alex : I am too... im scared of being in the dark forever, but im as well scared of being hurt, so everyday I try to go into the light
Alex : but return back here, its cold, I know, but it’s a comfy place where I can stay til I find a home out there
Haven: if there is one... and if the light doesn't burn. if there really a place out there our race can call home... out there?
Alex : I dunno yet, but if there isn’t.... im making it
Haven: *leans head on your should and sniffles* you always hold me up just when am ready to fall then I feel like am going to break
Alex : I do?... well im glad I can help... we are creatures of the dark haven, we are different
Alex : but still we deserve equalness... and love
Haven: but are we every really going to get? seems like an endless battle something we can't never win
Alex : win or not... im fighting this for you me and everyone like us
Haven: *sighs softly and plays with your hands* keep on fighting then... I do what I can, but one of the weakest ones here... there not much I can do or do for anyone but get in the way
Alex : you don’t get in my way
Alex : but still ill fight....
Alex : for now I gotta go to sleep girl, im tired
The following are pics of him, my dear love hubby Alex!
heheh so cute... *kiss*
I Say It... LOUD & PROUND! This Is My Hubby Alex Frost Noir! *hearts*
Aww makes me wish I was there sitting next to him with my head on his shoulder... be a cute pic... maybe someday... for now it is still hot!
King Of Spades... King to me... so am the Queen Of Spades... Love Him So *kisses*
He Is Missing Me... Awwies I Miss Him Dearly As Well *hugs*
Awwwies looks to sad and lonely... I wish I was there so he could be in my arms so I can hold him and tell him everything is going to be ok and that am here for him always.
He can DRIVE! Haha has an awesome car... that is so cute! I will drive it one day hahaha! He is a speed demon... yay!
This is one o f my fav pics of him... so hot and yay makes me so happy and proud to call him Hubby and mine! ALSO look at the shirt has our last name... he is sending me one too. Am so happy! Can’t wait!
Him and his band performing... am going to see him play and sing one day... go I love him... he is going to make it big one day wait and see trust me. And I will be so happy to be his wifey and call him my hubby dearest!