Awesome Friday!
Well went and got my COF ticket! OMFG when i got it in my hand i so wanted to make out with it! I totally creamed my pants and like rubbed it on my face! I know i must have looked like a freak but hey it's me! I laughed a bit cause. When my sister Hope went to get their collective soul tickets... they sold out! She was ready to scream and cry! And i mean throw a fit! A 27 year old woman was ready to sit on the floor cry kick and scream "no no no" That would have been funny to see her really do it! LOL she has done something along those lines before. Anyways, Was late going to see OKtober cause stupid friends keeping me back! So i ran from bus stop to bus stop to get from the south side to the north side... once downtown to call and find he has left! DAMN HIM! *shakes fists* I Then called up Kurt to see if he wanted to get together for coffee. We did and he said he would take me out of supper. So meant i would have to put of seeing Nat until like 8ish! He had to go home and clean thou his roommate was getting mad at him! So i said i would call him later! So i called Nat's place got the machine left her a message! Telling what was happening! Well went down to king's way cause that where i was told he was heading too! Well got there nothing. Called Kurt to see where we were meeting up and he couldn't make it cause he got called into work. Damn it! So went walking around king's way a bit more! Ran into Ali *dances* hugged her right away! She was at work! Well then walked her to work and went walking around window shopping for my little ones... 9 kids i got. Auroara is 1 month and 2 weeks old, Joiron is 5 months old, Rayden is 1 year old, Jor-el is 2 years old, Keishya is 5 years old, Patience just turned 6 years old today, Jaylene is 6 years old turning 7 soon, Raven is 9 years old, Chase is 11 years old, and Dakota is 12 years old. (NO they are not all mine mine, they are adopted! my brothers and sisters kids i helped raise and they call me "mom") So wonder around! Called OKtober's place to see if he got back yet, no but talked to his mom some! Decide to stalk this nice guy i seen plus had nothing better to do. Well did that. Got on the bus and went back to king's way! Walking to go hang around the meeting place for me and Nat! Walking that way i was in my own little world of thoughts. Didn't see OKtober so he came up behind me and slapped his hands down on my shoulders freaking me out! Plus i was damn cold! I only had a sweater on wondering around! Cause yet again my package from my dad has yet to get here! Well met his dad we walked to the food court sat talking... I wanted to talk to OKtober one on one just me and him but... that didn't happen! I'm not holding my breath anymore on that one happening! Well talked bit, Ali came up cause she was off work and going to change. She told me Nat was looking for me! So OKtober came with me to find her! Didn't find her so went to Ali and asked where Nat was! She went to get Ali her smokes! So seen her come up hugged her! Her and Ali went out for a smoke! Told them i was going to talk to OKotber more, cause i don't smoke! Turned around... he was gone... that got me a bit pissed! Like hello i don't leave without saying good bye! Went walking fast seen he was half way cross the food court over with his dad! Got there hugged him and everything and said good bye! I gave him my hand necklace that holds a crystal it in. I had that since i was in grade six when i found myself and everything! That was my symbol to help me and remind me when i was lost! Means a lot to me, gave it to him. Hope it will bring him luck and all. He needs it! Well they left i went off to sit and wait for Ali and Nat! They came and we went and got on the bus! Talked having fun! LOL i love these girls! Well me and Nat got off to go to Nat's house! Went there played on the computer and then went up stairs to hang out in Nat's room! Well Nat had to wash her hair and stuff for the club, i just touched up my make-up and put on a t-shirt instead of the tank I was wearing! Well did Nat's hair! And we were off! Got to the club! said hi to everyone and all! Seen OKtober! Well then just had fun! OMG when i seen Tazz i fucking froze! The first time i seen that girl I fucking lost my breath! She was just... wow! I had a crush on her from first sight! I just looked and watched her! Fuck she looked so hot in that skirt! *drools* Nat looked good too! She was hot! *wiggles eyebrows* I think am starting to get a crush on her as well! But my crushes don't last long... so yeah! BUT I GRABBED TAZZ'S ASS! *grins* I been wanting to do that for a long long time! But that is the thing with me! If i like someone I'm shy and i won't talk with them... But people I don't like i can flirt and tease them like hell! Messed up! Nat told Tazz i wanted to grab her ass! LOL DAMN NAT! *shakes fists* So when Nat pulled me over to them i was holding on to Nat and then Tazz goes to me, "So i heard you want to grab my ass" I was like so lost for words and i went so red! I wanted to hide! I mean standing next to this girl i get flushed! So yeah she turned around and said go for it! So I do! MMMmmmMMM *giggles and smiles* I would have grabbed more but... yeah! LOL she grabbed my tits! That was sweet! *blushes* I like to be fondled by other girls! Me, Nat, & Tazz danced! Well what is dancing to me... and i look fucking retarded! *shurgs* Well had a guy give me his beer! nice! LOL got stressed out a bit but it's OK! Relaxed a bit danced with Kat! LOL I swear i must have looked like i was twitching out or something! Seen OKtober and Keith dance in the cage together! FUCKING HOT! i watched them the whole time drooling! Plus i love guys doing stuff like that! Seen Matt been awhile god still looks hot but he is no longer single *tear* The guy who gave me his beer was nice! Cute too! Well I SEEN JAY *screams, smiles and giggles* HOLY FUCK IS HE BIG! can we say "F.B.I" = FUCKING BIG INDIAN! i was so scared to go up to him... i did and yeah i was stupid! I was so scared he was going to hurt me... When he hugged me OMG *melts* NICE STRONG SHOULDER AND GRIP! i love that feeling. very nice! Thou at first i thought he was going to crush me and then relaxed! I'm a dork thou i love jay's hugs! hahahahaha! But yeah that was cool! Well hung out more! Then i had to leave before 12 damn it! Well said bye to everyone! But i did it i did it! I kissed Nat! Not once not twice but 4 times! Well she kissed me once! It was sweet! I was happy as fuck after that! Well left and at the bus stop i was just happy and this girl was having a bad day asked if i smoked up i do off and on. She didn't want to smoke one by herself so i thought sure! So i did and listens to her day! Damn felt bad for her! Well we parted i wished her well! And i got home and went to bed. I went to work at 8 am... blah and come home to the birthday party! and then went to go see friends. That was it! oh yeah next Friday is the COF concert i had that day booked off of work but they re scheduled me to work that Friday and Saturday... grr.. so i kinda lied and said i had a dentist appointment... hehehehe! So i got it off! YAY ME! But yeah i can't get Saturday off so no club for me... *tear tear* and next weekend i can't go cause I'm going to red deer! To see Tilley! so be about a month before i go back *tear tear* I need to move out and get my own place! Am aiming for may, that if my dad doesn't move up here! He's thinking about it! Grr i set things up so i can more down there in Jan and he wants to move up! Damn him! Oh well! But i do need my own place if not to get a place with friends... maybe Nat and Ali! So then i don't have a crazy life of work work work, kids kids kids, clean clean clean, & sleep (when i can). Anyways i haven't seen Vincent is a time... *tear* i miss him. He wants me to date again... been about a year since i had a serious relationship i mean one where i didn't treat like a fling or something. I mean i dated people but i didn't take it seriously! He wants me too since he is... but i just feel i will betray him if i do! Beside i may date... but a girl... i really want a girlfriend right now. Not a boyfriend. males are just not for me i swear at times i got major trust issue with them. So looking for a girlfriend... thou I'm horny as hell and want a guy as a friends with befits thing... that might be better than a relationship... I'm not good at those things! Some one to have sex with, make out with, cuddle, & hang out with. plusd i want OKtober to look at my nails to help me since work they turned so bad... *tear* weak things... if not I'm thinking of getting gel nails... who knows but i will ask OKtober! but i feel like watching a movie tonight as i fall asleep and I'm in a chick flick mood so maybe i will watch drive me crazy!