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Don't ever become me.
Don't ever say you have it bad, because you could have it worse.
You could have it like this.
Scared shitless, unsure of the future, dependant upon receiving a letter in your mailbox. Unable to call the two people in your life who matter most (watch the tears fall harder.)
Just let it end now. I want out and at 2 in the morning I have no one to turn to. Guilt builds up and flashbacks start running through my mind; 50 minutes on Monday morning changed my life.
I can't drop out, I can't drop the class, I can't take a medical leave, I can't do anything. I'm stuck in this hole and i'm gasping for air. Barely breathing. Just barely. I don't know how much longer I'll last though.
I've never been this scared, this alone, this angry. All I want to do is crawl away and die....but I want to live to see this through. I want to beleive there is hope, but I'm so scared there isn't any.
And before I forget, before I start crying harder than I forgot how to....I love you.
Don't ever say you have it bad, because you could have it worse.
You could have it like this.
Scared shitless, unsure of the future, dependant upon receiving a letter in your mailbox. Unable to call the two people in your life who matter most (watch the tears fall harder.)
Just let it end now. I want out and at 2 in the morning I have no one to turn to. Guilt builds up and flashbacks start running through my mind; 50 minutes on Monday morning changed my life.
I can't drop out, I can't drop the class, I can't take a medical leave, I can't do anything. I'm stuck in this hole and i'm gasping for air. Barely breathing. Just barely. I don't know how much longer I'll last though.
I've never been this scared, this alone, this angry. All I want to do is crawl away and die....but I want to live to see this through. I want to beleive there is hope, but I'm so scared there isn't any.
And before I forget, before I start crying harder than I forgot how to....I love you.