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what an exciting past couple of days. honestly i dont know if i can stay up all night and sleep until 2 everyday anymore. it was fun for the weekend, but i feel so tired. last night i hung out with chris at his house and i watched vh1, which i usually do anyways late at night. it was good hanging out with someone new, and it was really good seeing him again. starting this week i am going to hang out with someone that i havent hung out with in a while every week until i leave. speaking of leaving, im so stoked its not even funny. i cant wait until this semester ends and im moving away, again. this time its for real, no turning back. i do miss jacksonville though, and i would love to move back there more than anything, but something is telling me to move to tampa, and im going to keep on track.
i went to the mall earlier, and spent like umm a lot of money. and yes, today i realized that shopping and depression should not be mixed together. you just feel so bad for yourself and keep grabbing more and more stuff... and the main purpose of going to the mall was to find a shirt to match my new skirt, and i totally forgot because i was so wrapped up in thoughts. i realized it as soon as i got in my car to leave, and hell no, i was not turing around. so ill go to the florida mall later this week, maybe with jess or kelly, i dont know. i dont like going to the mall by myself, because i ALWAYS end up seeing someone from high school that i dont want to talk to, and i always go to the mall by myself looking like a GD scrub, as i did today. i looked like i havent slept in like a week (i really havent), and i saw this girl.. who by the way looks horrible herself. and what the fuck is up with fat girls trying to be scene... honestly, it doesnt look good. the piercings and the gay clothes, give me a break. and wear shirts that fit you, i dont like to see guts hanging out. bah!
tonight i have to work, but im actually looking forward to working. i like being really caught up in things at work so i dont have to think much. that so sad to say, but fuck it. i dont care.
i went to the mall earlier, and spent like umm a lot of money. and yes, today i realized that shopping and depression should not be mixed together. you just feel so bad for yourself and keep grabbing more and more stuff... and the main purpose of going to the mall was to find a shirt to match my new skirt, and i totally forgot because i was so wrapped up in thoughts. i realized it as soon as i got in my car to leave, and hell no, i was not turing around. so ill go to the florida mall later this week, maybe with jess or kelly, i dont know. i dont like going to the mall by myself, because i ALWAYS end up seeing someone from high school that i dont want to talk to, and i always go to the mall by myself looking like a GD scrub, as i did today. i looked like i havent slept in like a week (i really havent), and i saw this girl.. who by the way looks horrible herself. and what the fuck is up with fat girls trying to be scene... honestly, it doesnt look good. the piercings and the gay clothes, give me a break. and wear shirts that fit you, i dont like to see guts hanging out. bah!
tonight i have to work, but im actually looking forward to working. i like being really caught up in things at work so i dont have to think much. that so sad to say, but fuck it. i dont care.