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Henry Longfellow once said, "Great is the art of beginning, but greater the art is of ending." I'm not so sure you'd call this an ending,but it feels like it,and im scared. I'm scared of being alone. This girl really is drug-like and i'd gladly put down cigarettes if i could just have one more day with her. One more day without any drama,one more day with just us,one more sunset and one more kiss. But i feel majorly like i've let down her and myself. I said some things on the phone out of anger and heartbreak and i just wish i never wanted to find that picture. I wish that my morning doesn't have to be lonely. I haven't sat on my roof and watched the sunrise in a long time. And honestly,it wasn't peaceful. I sat on my roof and cried and cried for at least an hour or so. I kept crying out to God and it feels as if he wasn't answering me. I'm really happy that she realized people cared about her,but im also sad that she realized what an asshole i can be. See,thats why it takes alot for me to open up to people,because i'm afraid of what they'll see. I'm afraid that they'll realize im not the best person in the world once they get to know me.
I know many people might not read this,but i really thank those of you who do take the time out of your busy schedules to sit and read my rare updates. I just want you to know that i will always care about you guys and how much most of you have helped me in life..Kari,Elvin,Kara..
And to this girl. she knows who she is. I just want you to know that i miss you and whatever happens between us,i'll accept it.
I know many people might not read this,but i really thank those of you who do take the time out of your busy schedules to sit and read my rare updates. I just want you to know that i will always care about you guys and how much most of you have helped me in life..Kari,Elvin,Kara..
And to this girl. she knows who she is. I just want you to know that i miss you and whatever happens between us,i'll accept it.