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Pain. I'm writing to keep my mind off of it, i still have another hour before i can take 2 more vicodin. It hurts so bad. I have never felt pain like that before, it was to the point of passing out, when in fact i already was blacking out from the pain. thats when i went to the emergency room. they gave me drops and vicodin but the pain never really went away. I havent slept in days, I barely ate anything in days, Im deaf in one ear, Ruptured ear drum. My throat hurts so bad and i cant breathe. My throats about the size of a dime right now. the pain extends from the top of my head down my left side of my face down to my neck. gosh, i can feel it pulsing now. I hate that. PUlsing pain when your pain medicine is starting to fade away. Why do they put the time to retake medicine so far apart, they know youre going to feel pain inbetween then dont they!? woops and theres the blood. funny how that is, ive never bled from inside of my ear before. Ouch. i wish someone was on so i could talk to them, i need something to get my mind off of the pain. Im getting dizzy again. my kidneys hurt. THe afterhours clinic uptown advized me to take Motrin 800s, Tylenal #3s and Benadryl all at the same time. which is a BAD idea, considering that will kill your kidneys. I feel like i drank tequila for 40 hours straight. thats what my kidneys feel like. the pulsing. ugh. it hurts. I hope no ones reading this, i feel bad for complaining. but its the worst pain i think i've ever had. with 2 vicodin and medicated ear drops i still feel the pain so much. I hope it goes away soon. I want to talk again, i want to hear again. I want to stop taking the drugs. i want to sleep, i want to be pain free!! :(