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10 days til Alexisonfire...I hope! I just read Sarah's journal and I'm beginning to think that maybe Nat was trying to give her my ticket coz I haven't called Nat EVER and made any plans, which I have an excuse for-I work every friggen day and when I have time off, which is mostly the weekends Ben wants to spend them with me and if I have time off during the week, mom usually wants to do something or I have a list of things to do around the house. I haven't had a day off to relax in, I swear to God maybe a month now. It just never ever ends! So, I'm hoping that, that's not the case that shes trying to give my ticket away to Sarah coz that kinda hit me and made me realize how much of a bad friend I've been lately. Hopefully we can all hang out this week though coz I have 2 days off. Yay me!
The part off this whole concert experience that really gets me is that I have to fork out $100 for to get there and back! That's how much a bus costs at Coach Canada. I don't mind because it'll be fun, but thats still a lot of money. Oh well though! I hope we don't get lost trying to get from the bus to the Kool Haus coz, that would suck and I don't really know my way around Toronto. Ben's scared for me, he thinks I'm going to get mugged of the money that I won't have or there's going to be a shoot by and I'm going to get shot lol. I hope that doesn't happen!~
My stomach hurts really bad and I think it was all the chinese food I ate tonight. We went out for dinner with my grandparents and I ate a lot. After that, Ben and I went to Wal-mart and I bought white eye-liner, white eye shadow and some new nail polish. I have a thing for white now. I saw this episode on Tyra Banks and she said her number one beauty tip was, white eye liner traced with black and it was because it makes your eyes look bigger and it really does! The only stuff that actually showed up was the Rimmel stuff, so if anyone reads that spend the $5 on it coz its awesome. After that, we went to Zellers and bought blue rope lights to not go on my window, but to go under my bed. Yep, sounds wierd, but I thought if I bought the lights and put them on my floor and ran them around my bed, that it would look cool. I was right, it looks awesome. I have like and under-glow for my bed lol.
Ben pretty much gave it away tonight, that he bought me the new Gwen Stefani CD for Christmas. I was picking it up just to look at it, and he was like," DONT YOU DARE BUY IT, INFACT DON'T EVEN LOOK AT IT!" "Um, why not Ben?" "Because...well...ummmm...SANTA MIGHT GET YOU IT FOR CHRISTMAS!" I put it down and chuckled to myself, he sucks at keeping things secrets, which leads into my next topic!
Thursday night,I was texting Ben and we were texting back and forth, but it was taking him longer than it normally would, to text me back. I was getting pretty sick of texting considering I was sitting on the couch, just watching T.V. bored out of mind. I asked him if he wanted to go on MSN and he was like,"Well, Nick's doing his homework now with mom on it, so I can't go on." I had no problem with it, so I asked him an hour later if he was planning on going on still and apparently Nick still on it and this was now about 10 at night. So, Ben was still taking a long time to text me back so I asked him what was taking him so long and he said he was watching a really good movie. I bought it and all coz I trusted him, right? So, at 10:45 I said Í was going to bed and to have a goodnight and all that stuff and he said it right back. Than as I was starting to fall asleep I here my phone go off and I'm like WTF? I opened it and there was two text messages, one saying that ben was sorry for being a jerk to me tonight and the other saying that he loved me again and to have a goodnight sleep. I text him back and asked him why he felt so compelled to say sorry for being a jerk if he wasn't really being a jerk and he said there was no reason. Well, there I was mouth wide open, feeling like a peice of shit and absolutly stupid. He was lying to me about something and wasn't telling me. So I was like,"You asshole, you're lying to me and I'm getting the impression that you were out somewhere tonight with someone, and you're not telling me. God help you so, if I find out you're cheating on me and God better help the person your cheating on me with, coz I will fucking kill them." Than he was all like Im not cheating on you and I was only at Kyles til 5 and I didnt wanna tell you coz I thought you would be mad. I'm not sure why he thought I would be made but ok. So, than I was like well if you were only there til 5 than why are you texting me now at 11:30 at night when your suppose to be sleeping coz u have to get up at 5? He was like honestly I was only there til 5. I was like well I'll call your mom tomorrow and we'll find out if you were home tonight. Boy, did I hear the truth faster than a bolt of lightening! He told me that he was there til 11 and that him and the guys were playing cards. I lost it all and like told him to fuck off, and that I didnt wanna date him anymore. He was like sending me text msgs like every second. I stopped texting him and tried to go back to sleep coz I was so mad that he lied to me for the 3rd time in 9 months. About 5 minutes later my phone goes off and it was him calling me, so he liked begged me to stay with him and everything sweet you can think of for about an hour. I gave in, but warned him that if he lied to me again, that would be it for me. I've never been that pissed off in a really long time! It scared me kind of lol.
Anyways I'm off now to go and chill in my clean room :)
The part off this whole concert experience that really gets me is that I have to fork out $100 for to get there and back! That's how much a bus costs at Coach Canada. I don't mind because it'll be fun, but thats still a lot of money. Oh well though! I hope we don't get lost trying to get from the bus to the Kool Haus coz, that would suck and I don't really know my way around Toronto. Ben's scared for me, he thinks I'm going to get mugged of the money that I won't have or there's going to be a shoot by and I'm going to get shot lol. I hope that doesn't happen!~
My stomach hurts really bad and I think it was all the chinese food I ate tonight. We went out for dinner with my grandparents and I ate a lot. After that, Ben and I went to Wal-mart and I bought white eye-liner, white eye shadow and some new nail polish. I have a thing for white now. I saw this episode on Tyra Banks and she said her number one beauty tip was, white eye liner traced with black and it was because it makes your eyes look bigger and it really does! The only stuff that actually showed up was the Rimmel stuff, so if anyone reads that spend the $5 on it coz its awesome. After that, we went to Zellers and bought blue rope lights to not go on my window, but to go under my bed. Yep, sounds wierd, but I thought if I bought the lights and put them on my floor and ran them around my bed, that it would look cool. I was right, it looks awesome. I have like and under-glow for my bed lol.
Ben pretty much gave it away tonight, that he bought me the new Gwen Stefani CD for Christmas. I was picking it up just to look at it, and he was like," DONT YOU DARE BUY IT, INFACT DON'T EVEN LOOK AT IT!" "Um, why not Ben?" "Because...well...ummmm...SANTA MIGHT GET YOU IT FOR CHRISTMAS!" I put it down and chuckled to myself, he sucks at keeping things secrets, which leads into my next topic!
Thursday night,I was texting Ben and we were texting back and forth, but it was taking him longer than it normally would, to text me back. I was getting pretty sick of texting considering I was sitting on the couch, just watching T.V. bored out of mind. I asked him if he wanted to go on MSN and he was like,"Well, Nick's doing his homework now with mom on it, so I can't go on." I had no problem with it, so I asked him an hour later if he was planning on going on still and apparently Nick still on it and this was now about 10 at night. So, Ben was still taking a long time to text me back so I asked him what was taking him so long and he said he was watching a really good movie. I bought it and all coz I trusted him, right? So, at 10:45 I said Í was going to bed and to have a goodnight and all that stuff and he said it right back. Than as I was starting to fall asleep I here my phone go off and I'm like WTF? I opened it and there was two text messages, one saying that ben was sorry for being a jerk to me tonight and the other saying that he loved me again and to have a goodnight sleep. I text him back and asked him why he felt so compelled to say sorry for being a jerk if he wasn't really being a jerk and he said there was no reason. Well, there I was mouth wide open, feeling like a peice of shit and absolutly stupid. He was lying to me about something and wasn't telling me. So I was like,"You asshole, you're lying to me and I'm getting the impression that you were out somewhere tonight with someone, and you're not telling me. God help you so, if I find out you're cheating on me and God better help the person your cheating on me with, coz I will fucking kill them." Than he was all like Im not cheating on you and I was only at Kyles til 5 and I didnt wanna tell you coz I thought you would be mad. I'm not sure why he thought I would be made but ok. So, than I was like well if you were only there til 5 than why are you texting me now at 11:30 at night when your suppose to be sleeping coz u have to get up at 5? He was like honestly I was only there til 5. I was like well I'll call your mom tomorrow and we'll find out if you were home tonight. Boy, did I hear the truth faster than a bolt of lightening! He told me that he was there til 11 and that him and the guys were playing cards. I lost it all and like told him to fuck off, and that I didnt wanna date him anymore. He was like sending me text msgs like every second. I stopped texting him and tried to go back to sleep coz I was so mad that he lied to me for the 3rd time in 9 months. About 5 minutes later my phone goes off and it was him calling me, so he liked begged me to stay with him and everything sweet you can think of for about an hour. I gave in, but warned him that if he lied to me again, that would be it for me. I've never been that pissed off in a really long time! It scared me kind of lol.
Anyways I'm off now to go and chill in my clean room :)