i push my fingers into my eyes, it's the only thing that slowly stops the ache.
Well it's been a few days since i've updated and a lot of shit has happen since then. First of all..umm..i think it was Thursday..i fell and busted my ass(NO FUCKING LIE)on my fire escape. It was raining and i was walking down it with Chris and yeah my feet just slid out from under me and hit the last 3 steps. Like it literally cut my ass crack. Now i have big fucking bruises. I hurt my back and my left arm. I was so fucking sore dude.
Anyways..Fri. night Jared came over. I've missed him so much. I love him i really do. At times i wish i could just let go of him, but i can't. It hurts, it hurts me really bad. But it's something that is always going to be there.
Sat. night well i got drunk off my ass, it was crazy. I never meant to get as drunk as i did. Atleast i didn't puke. I ended up making out with Tyler Mann, and then some guy made me make out with him(i didn't want to at all). I told Jared that I Love Him, and i said that i wanted to get back together. That night was crazy. Jared took care of me and thank you so much for that. I've never been that drunk i do believe. But i needed it so that way i wont do it for a long time.
Sun. i had a major hangover, but i drunk some water and felt drunk again but made me feel a whole lot better. Later that night Chris, Brooke and I went to McDonald's. That was fun..i love chris. We decided to go paint balling. So yeah..Seville, Jenn, Me, Chris, and Brooke went. It was so much fun. I hit a church,a semi truck, and some more stuff. Came back and i don't remember.
Today well I miss Jared. I talk to him today for a while. I'm confused.Lindsey is back..oh yay! OH FUCKING GOD,my roomate is having sex with me in the room. They are right behind me. It stinks. Someone come save me NOW!!! Oh dude it stinks really bad in here..you know the smell of sex, think of that and the smell of blacks when they are sweaty. OH Jesus! I would leave but it's so fucking cold and i have no where to go. DAMNIT!!! Jared I Love You with all my heart, muah!
Anyways..Fri. night Jared came over. I've missed him so much. I love him i really do. At times i wish i could just let go of him, but i can't. It hurts, it hurts me really bad. But it's something that is always going to be there.
Sat. night well i got drunk off my ass, it was crazy. I never meant to get as drunk as i did. Atleast i didn't puke. I ended up making out with Tyler Mann, and then some guy made me make out with him(i didn't want to at all). I told Jared that I Love Him, and i said that i wanted to get back together. That night was crazy. Jared took care of me and thank you so much for that. I've never been that drunk i do believe. But i needed it so that way i wont do it for a long time.
Sun. i had a major hangover, but i drunk some water and felt drunk again but made me feel a whole lot better. Later that night Chris, Brooke and I went to McDonald's. That was fun..i love chris. We decided to go paint balling. So yeah..Seville, Jenn, Me, Chris, and Brooke went. It was so much fun. I hit a church,a semi truck, and some more stuff. Came back and i don't remember.
Today well I miss Jared. I talk to him today for a while. I'm confused.Lindsey is back..oh yay! OH FUCKING GOD,my roomate is having sex with me in the room. They are right behind me. It stinks. Someone come save me NOW!!! Oh dude it stinks really bad in here..you know the smell of sex, think of that and the smell of blacks when they are sweaty. OH Jesus! I would leave but it's so fucking cold and i have no where to go. DAMNIT!!! Jared I Love You with all my heart, muah!