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so yea its 11:35pm and i have to wake up at 6:00 tomorrow morning... im gonna regret this.. but ah well.. Its time to vent.. Ive got some things on my mind.
ok ok so somethings have been bothering me for a few days now.. my boyfriend started talking about one of his close friends that happens to be female and all this time he spent with her and etc. i get jelous of course. but thats nothing new. and then he says that she wants to meet me.. get to know me.. you know.. so i know he wouldnt cheat on me with her.. that came off a little akward.. maybe he didnt mean that the way it was said.. but then he says.. i think you two would like each other-- *your like the same person*...... that brings me down on so many levels.. (i mean no offence to the girl-- i dont know her and im sure shes pretty neat -- what im feeling has nothing to do with her personally) 1. im exactly like someone else.. 2. hes in love with me and im exactly like her, yet hes not in love with her.. ? 3. well.. lets stop there.. dont want to get too deep.. but my point is.. yeah theres no point.. it was just upseting me. i mean i know hes not cheating on me.. i just needed to get that out...
Anthony has been talking shit about me.. he thinks im a slut apparently.. do I come off as slutty? please let me know.
I hate being alone.. I was in Florida alone constantly.. i hated it.. i was left with my thoughts for too long and when that happens i get scared and paranoid.. god i was so paranoid about everything. i had 2 or 3 panic attacks within 6 days.. eep.
Rex pisses me off .. he forces himself apon me he hits me he throws stuff at me he calls me terrible things hits on me and i still forgive him for ruining me...
Im stupid... hes stupid... thank god i never see him.. Id kill myself..
whew.. well Im off.. bed time!<3
so i met a guy named steve today at hot topic.. hes supposedly burning me some cds.. eh.. hes supposed to call at least.
nini!
/CAROlCHAOS/
ok ok so somethings have been bothering me for a few days now.. my boyfriend started talking about one of his close friends that happens to be female and all this time he spent with her and etc. i get jelous of course. but thats nothing new. and then he says that she wants to meet me.. get to know me.. you know.. so i know he wouldnt cheat on me with her.. that came off a little akward.. maybe he didnt mean that the way it was said.. but then he says.. i think you two would like each other-- *your like the same person*...... that brings me down on so many levels.. (i mean no offence to the girl-- i dont know her and im sure shes pretty neat -- what im feeling has nothing to do with her personally) 1. im exactly like someone else.. 2. hes in love with me and im exactly like her, yet hes not in love with her.. ? 3. well.. lets stop there.. dont want to get too deep.. but my point is.. yeah theres no point.. it was just upseting me. i mean i know hes not cheating on me.. i just needed to get that out...
Anthony has been talking shit about me.. he thinks im a slut apparently.. do I come off as slutty? please let me know.
I hate being alone.. I was in Florida alone constantly.. i hated it.. i was left with my thoughts for too long and when that happens i get scared and paranoid.. god i was so paranoid about everything. i had 2 or 3 panic attacks within 6 days.. eep.
Rex pisses me off .. he forces himself apon me he hits me he throws stuff at me he calls me terrible things hits on me and i still forgive him for ruining me...
Im stupid... hes stupid... thank god i never see him.. Id kill myself..
whew.. well Im off.. bed time!<3
so i met a guy named steve today at hot topic.. hes supposedly burning me some cds.. eh.. hes supposed to call at least.
nini!
/CAROlCHAOS/