the rooms to cold..............
Today was horrible.i cant even begin to describe.but here it goes.I got a referal at school today i had to go to the god damn counselers.I hate that bitch.Then i had to walk in the rain to work.but it wasnt so bad because i was walking w. courtney t.Then i finally got there.about an hour later cerria calls me to tell me ashleys in the hospital again.She tried to kill herself again.cerria came and picked me up and i got to leave early.When we got to the hospital.i sort of was mad at ashley.but i was really sad too.this was here 2nd time.I didnt really know what to say.so i just sat there and listened to music w/ her.I told her how much she ment to me and everyone else.I was sort of scared.which probly sounds gay.but idk.Then she had to talk the a counseler person so me and cerria left.After that we went to eat at In and out.we barley said anything the whole time we were eating.then she drove me home.and i took a shower.and painted my nails and toenails.i cant think straight anymore.i dont know what i want to feel.ashley scared the shit out of everyone today and that in some way pissed me off.i have a doctors app. tomorrow.i dont know why though.probly a check up.then im spossed to go see ashley again.eh.this is probly really mean but i dont really want to.i love her but its really hard and i dont know what to say.and to top things off cerria told me she was moving.i wish she would have picked a bettter time to tell me but i guess that seemed right for her.shes moving to cali. in 2 weeks.because her dad has a really good job opening.but im going to go and watch tv now.sorry i bitched so long.