That's how it is
Oh man, another time I update and so much crap has happened. To sum some of the older things that's happened
-Went to Frisco for gay pride
-Drama as always (sigh but oh well)
-Had fun but and I didnt
-Had to tow my car cause something was wrong w/ it ($200 stuck in Capistrano)
-Got it back, seems ok now
Now...for other things. Sorry Kim I didn't call you back. Alot of stuff happened and I decided to write it down but for the fact I don't want some people to know, I will try to describe it in a nutshell.
So there has been someone I have been liking lately even though I always thought I shouldn't jump into another relationship since its only been a month of my previous one. Still, I couldnt help but feel closer to the person, im not sure if its proximity or the long time attraction or whatever but I think ive always liked him. When I did like the person, he really wasn't out at the time and he wasnt ready to get to know downe guys so I guess it kinda faded away. But after awhile, something grew and its come back so damn quickly its almost the only thing I think about these days. Recently, things havent worked so well with his bf so of course I will be there anytime he needs it. But when he talked about one of his exes who's given so much BS and says that he kinda regrets what happened between the two, it had my brain thinking that I know I could be so much better comapred to everyone but I shouldnt think that....hell I shouldnt like you...but I am and I dont know what to do. Im not gonna say anything because its the wrong time to do so but I dont wanna be so late to the fact he then gets to know someone else and something could have happened if I had only said anything.
I dont know when that time is but I hope its soon. Seriously, it sucks holding a secret for so long and you cant do anything but keep it because if it comes out, your not sure if your ready for the answer or if the other person is ready to hear it.
Maybe it does feel a little better that I type it even though ive talked about it with a few people but still, this is just poison man lol. Like that song, that girl (boy in my situation) is poiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssoooooooooooooon hahaha.
Ok, I wanna get through the day without thinking about it so lets start........NOW! Aw crap, I failed by a second haha.
-Went to Frisco for gay pride
-Drama as always (sigh but oh well)
-Had fun but and I didnt
-Had to tow my car cause something was wrong w/ it ($200 stuck in Capistrano)
-Got it back, seems ok now
Now...for other things. Sorry Kim I didn't call you back. Alot of stuff happened and I decided to write it down but for the fact I don't want some people to know, I will try to describe it in a nutshell.
So there has been someone I have been liking lately even though I always thought I shouldn't jump into another relationship since its only been a month of my previous one. Still, I couldnt help but feel closer to the person, im not sure if its proximity or the long time attraction or whatever but I think ive always liked him. When I did like the person, he really wasn't out at the time and he wasnt ready to get to know downe guys so I guess it kinda faded away. But after awhile, something grew and its come back so damn quickly its almost the only thing I think about these days. Recently, things havent worked so well with his bf so of course I will be there anytime he needs it. But when he talked about one of his exes who's given so much BS and says that he kinda regrets what happened between the two, it had my brain thinking that I know I could be so much better comapred to everyone but I shouldnt think that....hell I shouldnt like you...but I am and I dont know what to do. Im not gonna say anything because its the wrong time to do so but I dont wanna be so late to the fact he then gets to know someone else and something could have happened if I had only said anything.
I dont know when that time is but I hope its soon. Seriously, it sucks holding a secret for so long and you cant do anything but keep it because if it comes out, your not sure if your ready for the answer or if the other person is ready to hear it.
Maybe it does feel a little better that I type it even though ive talked about it with a few people but still, this is just poison man lol. Like that song, that girl (boy in my situation) is poiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssoooooooooooooon hahaha.
Ok, I wanna get through the day without thinking about it so lets start........NOW! Aw crap, I failed by a second haha.