Just as silly as it seems...you can call me a loser if you want ( An entry more for a boy)
O I was looking threw all the things from basic, and I found my letter writing stuff, and inside that I realized why I had ignored it for so long. The songs I wrote while I was in the hospital, and the 4 page letter of nothing but sweet words and hope. I spent four days in that hospital, to come back and discover the one I wrote those songs to, the one I wrote that letter to no longer wanted to be that part of my life.
Odd how things work, and after so long something so simple can make you cry. Its also odd that even from so far away you can fall in love with someone, have them leave, watch them start new, and some how do the same, yet ignore how you feel becuase things where just unethical, or undoable....
Odd huh? Silly maybe...
I know about caring about someone more then they care about you and what I have discovered is, it sucks, and I really don't like it. But some how, some way, I seem to do it everytime. Only thing I can do is move on. But before I go theres one thing I want you to know...As childish as this may sound...
I still love you...
It makes no sense...ever...and maybe, just maybe thats how its supose to be..Maybe one day I'll send you that letter, and maybe you'll see how much of a shock it was to come back to that two weeks before graduation, and why its so hard to talk to you. Why I didn't write back, and maybe one day you'll understand why I wrote some of the stuff I did....
Its funny how I get jealous of her, funny how things go, but in the end everything will work out I supose...
(July 17th, 2004 - Ft. Jackson, SC)
Blue skies, Coast lines
It's funny, How time flys
Two steps, Onward
Shining stars, Two hearts
700 miles, A part
So close, so far
... ...
So take my hand
We'll meet the demand
two hearts to one
As beautiful as the rising sun
So close, so far
Make my wish, on a star
Dosen't matter where you are
Just as long as we can be
Theres no need to see
When I know your hearts with me
As long as we can be we
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If super heros were real....
(July 17, 2004)
He thinks shes beautiful even when the worlds upside down
and he'd do anything not to see her frown
shes his wonder woman
and hes her superman
so just let the s*it hit the fan
becuase it don't matter to me
be who you want to be
longing for simplicity
its oh so complicated
but super over rated
it don't mater any how
don't let the world get you down
there's something that I've found
just be who you want to be
cuz I'm living just to be me
becuase he loves that simplicity
the wonder of authenticity
I'm his wonder woman
and hes my superman
kinda ironic and fitting this song is...and it just came on the radio...
"I feel so broken up,
and I give up,
I just want to tell you so you know,
here i go scream my lungs out,
and try to get to you,
you are my only one
I let go
theres just no one who gets me like you do..
made my mistakes and let you down.."
-Ash
Odd how things work, and after so long something so simple can make you cry. Its also odd that even from so far away you can fall in love with someone, have them leave, watch them start new, and some how do the same, yet ignore how you feel becuase things where just unethical, or undoable....
Odd huh? Silly maybe...
I know about caring about someone more then they care about you and what I have discovered is, it sucks, and I really don't like it. But some how, some way, I seem to do it everytime. Only thing I can do is move on. But before I go theres one thing I want you to know...As childish as this may sound...
I still love you...
It makes no sense...ever...and maybe, just maybe thats how its supose to be..Maybe one day I'll send you that letter, and maybe you'll see how much of a shock it was to come back to that two weeks before graduation, and why its so hard to talk to you. Why I didn't write back, and maybe one day you'll understand why I wrote some of the stuff I did....
Its funny how I get jealous of her, funny how things go, but in the end everything will work out I supose...
(July 17th, 2004 - Ft. Jackson, SC)
Blue skies, Coast lines
It's funny, How time flys
Two steps, Onward
Shining stars, Two hearts
700 miles, A part
So close, so far
... ...
So take my hand
We'll meet the demand
two hearts to one
As beautiful as the rising sun
So close, so far
Make my wish, on a star
Dosen't matter where you are
Just as long as we can be
Theres no need to see
When I know your hearts with me
As long as we can be we
----------
If super heros were real....
(July 17, 2004)
He thinks shes beautiful even when the worlds upside down
and he'd do anything not to see her frown
shes his wonder woman
and hes her superman
so just let the s*it hit the fan
becuase it don't matter to me
be who you want to be
longing for simplicity
its oh so complicated
but super over rated
it don't mater any how
don't let the world get you down
there's something that I've found
just be who you want to be
cuz I'm living just to be me
becuase he loves that simplicity
the wonder of authenticity
I'm his wonder woman
and hes my superman
kinda ironic and fitting this song is...and it just came on the radio...
"I feel so broken up,
and I give up,
I just want to tell you so you know,
here i go scream my lungs out,
and try to get to you,
you are my only one
I let go
theres just no one who gets me like you do..
made my mistakes and let you down.."
-Ash