what a happy thanksgiving

[xunforgiven_grl]

i know i shouldnt be upset and i know i shouldnt cry. but i would like to have my boyfriend here with me. i would like him to treat me like i treat him. when i know that he has to get up early in the morning i dont go out with my friends, i dont go out to the bar knowing that my boyfriend isnt old enough to go with me. yeah it sucks that i am almost 6 years younger than him, it sucks that i cant legally drink, but that doesnt mean that he has to leave me out.

i hate that i have to cry. i just want to be home with my mom. and talk to her. and hear her tell me that everything is okay. i miss her guidance.

i think i just hate him right now. i should just go to bed and forget that today ever happened. forget it all.