sweetest thing
So. My life in a nutshell. all craziness. i feel as if i have lost so many friends because i never talk to them anymore because im too busy being wrapped up in him, or work, or busy screwing up in school. i didnt get the bright futures scholarship i needed to be able to pay for college. that is way bad. im too busy or too lazy to look for more scholarships or even apply to college. just knowing that i dont know how i am going to pay for it drags me down. i know im not the only one out there who didnt get financial aid right out of high school from being so awesome, but it still hurts me know that all the hard work i put in in my high school years and even before got me nowhere. it just goes to show what you can do when you dont care about anything then reality beats you in the face with a 2x4 and says, "Hey. Wake up dufus, this is your life."
waiting for the day when someone tells me that i look beautiful under that water im floating in.